“You Damn Sheep”

I did not
Read the
Fine print
It was a
Clause in it
It states
They can
Abandon me
After
The millionth
Sheep
I am a restless
Soul
That can not sleep
My eyes are
At half mass
My body is weak
As I lay
In bed
I start to sink
Into an oblivion
Between the sheets
I toss
And turn

Looking for
The sleeper sheep
To come
To me
So I can
Count them
And fall
Into deep
Sleep
But
They are
Nowhere
To be found
They refuse
To help me
They rather
Deal with
The easy peeps
That
Go down
By the tenth
Sheep
I begged them
Time and again
Not to abandon me
And save me
From this fate
Of restless nights
Running together
I don’t know
Today’s date
I need their
Patience
And
Help
I can not
Do it by myself
I need them
Yet those
Dirty little
Bastards rather
Steal from me
Taking my sanity
With my
Lack of
Sleep
I warn everyone
Don’t be
Like me
Read everything
They give
To you
It’s deception
In the hearts
Of
Lazy
Creepy Sheep
Who are
Picking and
Choosing who
Gets sleep

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Need An Advocate For My Life”

Do I keep
Walking
Or stand still
Until someone
Comes to
Find me
Waiting feels
Like a lifetime
And dying
Is an eternity
Either way
I risk
Being lost
It’s hell
In the middle of
Somewhere
Surrounded
By nothing
Wondering
Aimlessly
With
No direction
Just walking
In circles
Like I’m crazy
Looking
For something
That is rare
And hard to find
A piece
Of happiness
In the form
Of two pills
One states
Lie down
On my back
And die
The other
States
Stand tall
on my feet
And fight
To the death
If I have to
Either fate
By my hands
Are
Bad versus worst
Case scenario
I need
Something
More drastic
Taking all worries
Away
Of picking
The wrong one
So I’m
Giving it over
To a judger
A devil’s advocate
That is
Capable
Of weeding out
The ungrateful
And
The unworthy
With specific
Instructions
To give
My heart
To the one
Ready to die
For me
In order
To live
Forever
Up
In heaven
Beside me
With no
Fear
Deceit
Or
Heartache
To come
Home to

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Limit Is Here”

Keep trying me
I dare you
My heart is
Out of this
Stop testing me
You really
Want me to
Fail drastically
I have no more
Cheeks
To turn
I’m there
Now
I’m tired of
Deceitful
Trifling liars
Being around
Here
I am
No
Saint
By any means
It will be
A cold day
In hell
Before
I die
For anyone’s sins
I’m tired of
People taking
My kindness
For weakness
It was called
Tolerance
And it is
At the limit
You’ve
Done me wrong
You’ve voided
Your
Unconditional
Love status
That bridge
You had
It’s condemned now
And deadly
To travel
I am not
Your mother
A friend
Or your family
Don’t
Call me
I don’t want to
Smell your
Shit fragrance
I will never
Help you
If you’re stranded
I can’t stand you
I’m ready to
Snap back
And finish this
I’ve extended
My hand
I’m done
Being the
Better one
It’s time
For me to be selfish
I’m Saving my
Last fingers
To survive with
I just want
Peace
And to be
Left alone

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Deeper Than The Physical”

Under the surface
Is a glorious beauty
In the depths
Of select souls
In this world
They bring clarity
To the blind
And the unloved
These souls
Have no hidden
Clause within them
All you have
To do is
Look further
Than your eyes
To see
Without Your
Sight
And presumptions
Leading you
To doubt
What could be magical
And freeing
Use
Whatever
Your heart
Your gut
Or intuition
Doesn’t matter
Just feel
They say
Beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder
It’s true
Can’t you see
Won’t you look
Beyond
The beauty
Of the physical
Outer layer
Somewhat deeper
Than the sea
There is a gem
Precious and rare
Inside of those
You would think
That wouldn’t be
They are full of Hope
And potential
But are consider
Ugly
Because no one
Has looked
Past the broken wing
And side halo
Hanging off their head
Dirty from
Getting
Down and dirty
In the trenches
Going deep
In a world
That don’t take
Kindly to hoping
And individual dreams
Yet they soldier
On to spread love
With smiles
And simple gestures
Through compassion
And their humanity
With no bias
In their heart
Towards color or gender
Their heart
Only beats
To the drum
Of love and
It’s ready to love
Another unconditionally
With only
The utmost purity
There are no conditions
What you must
Do for them
They are genuine
With no intentions
To use
Or hurt
Anybody
They refuse
To do it
Out of
Personal gain
They have
No jealousy
No hate
Within them
They win
When you win
When they help
All people
Succeed
In accomplishing
Their dreams
To living in
Their happily
Ever after

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Who’s In Control”

No one
Knows your life
Or the struggle
You make
On a daily
Just don’t lie
About it
Live your Truth
Don’t hide
Behind the lie
That you are
An independent woman
When you rely
On men to pay
Your bills
And give you gifts
Answer
One question
What would you do
If men
Did not
Paying
Would you even
Consider it
To take off
Your clothes
And prance for them
You say men
Don’t take advantage
Of a you
Because you’re
Your own boss
But all you’ve bossed
Is opening your mouth
And laying on your back
Any right
It’s your decision
You made
Your choice
But
Are you really
Being true
To yourself
When you’re the
Next act
Following someone else
Stripping
For tips
Why are not
Confident
In your brain
And your good sense
To make money
The right way
And be your own boss
In any event
It’s your decision
To live your life
You don’t
Have to answer
To me
It’s not my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Tunnel Vision”

I do not
Need
To walk
In anyone
Else’s shoes
I will
Never be
A failure
I’m a winner
In my heart
Of hearts
I came
To my senses
I saw
What I was meant
To be
It’s not
Being with you
That person
Was a stranger
That possessed
My body
And corrupted
My soul
I cried
For days
To cleanse
Myself
When I wiped
My eyes
I was able
To see
The truth
For the
First time
I saw
With new sight
It was a
Vision of beauty
It was me
Smiling bright
I was
Without you
And my
Life was
All right
I promised myself
To never
Allow that image
To fade away
I finally
Had my strength
You made
Me weak
In the past
I could only see
Through
Tunnel vision
I got so far
Off track
I was
On a mission
Trying to prove
You wrong
Forgetting
Myself
Just for that
Short while
It felt like
An eternity
Walking
In your shoes
I was
Doing dumb shit
Mirroring you
Your stank
Attitude
And I allowed
Your anger to
Consume me
I was lost
Inside of you
I had to get out
I broke
The only rule
I had for myself
To always
Be true
Be me
And never
Be a duplicate

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Laid In Front Of You”

Two glasses
On a table
Rotated to
Your point
Of view
It does not
Matter
Everyone else
Sees it as
Wrong
But you
Say it
Ain’t so
Your reasoning
Is warped
You will never
See
The truth
Even if
It was
Presented right
In front
Of you
My conclusion
Is I’m damned
In whatever
I do
I will never
Have the chance
To be
A part of
Your life
I’m forever
At arms length
Doubted
With no
Reason
To back it up
I’m feeling
Some type of way
Because you lied
You put me
In this position
Making me
Feel like
I’m the one
That is wrong
And blind
To the truth
I shouldn’t have
To defend myself
When I’ve
Committed no crime
Against you
You are the one
That let your
Past and enemies
Condemn me
Someone else
Made the decision
To hurt you
That was them
Not me
I’ve been here
Standing steadfast
Beside you
Never faltering
Real and confident
In every step
I made with you
I laid everything
About me
Out on the table
You should
Know me
My heart
My story
And my character
Nothing has
Ever changed
I’ve been the same
Person
I hate how
You say
You want
Someone real
But keep
Doing stupid
Things to offend me
Stop taking it
Out on me
I’ve never
Turned my back
Once on you
I was the one
That told you
You was family
And
Embraced you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Karma Will Get You”

I feel
Every time
I’m around you
I’m dry drowning
In front of you
I can not depend
On you
To save me
If I do
I should
Give up now
Lay down
And let mother nature
End my pain
And
Devour me
It’s just
The realization
I’ve come to
I’ve realized you
Will never
Attempt to come
To my rescue
You’re a liar
Manipulator
A con artist
You lie
About everything
Telling everyone
The sky is gray
When everyone
Sees it’s blue
You have never
Told the truth
To save one life
Including yours
That’s why
You are dead inside
God forbid
If you ever
Said to anyone
I put it on my
Mother
Father
Brother
Sister
Daughter
Son
Life
Everyone would
Fall dead then
No one will
Survive your curse
On them
You would like it
Wouldn’t you
You’re delusional
If you believe
You’ve fooled
The world
Your obsession
With yourself
Is clear as
A sunny day
In June
You want what
You want
At any cost
Not caring
Who gets hurt
In the process
You have
No heart
To give
And
Compassion
Is a curse word
If anyone
Ask for it
From you
You are evil
You get kicks
And thrills
Out of
Tormenting
People
God
Does not like ugly
You will get yours
I don’t have
To do nothing
To you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Leave The Drama On TV”

I try
To keep
My life
Simple
And
Easy
To the best
Of my ability
By keeping
The most important
People close
And near to me
That love me
Dearly
I do not care
For liars
Thieves
And
Drama queens
To surround me
I have that on
Cable TV
I can watch
It any time
I feel the need
For a drama series

Granted
No one
Owes me
Anything
Only thing
I ask for
Is peace
And respect
And I will
Come easy
With an open
Mind
And clean ears
To hear
You speak
Just have something
To say to me
I will not wait
For a open mouth
With a voice
That is silent
I don’t need
Your deafening
Silence
Inside of me
My gift
I gave
I showed up
To something
Ill-prepared
And slapped
Together with
Crazy glue
You threw
That opportunity
In the garbage
So easily
All you had
To do
Is be Real
Lead with honesty
Speak your truth
Then
Give your love freely
It would have
Been
A start
To a new beginning

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Not Following Your Footprints”

He created me
To be
An original
Someone unique
Marching to
My own beat
So stop
Your
Sanctimonious
Holier
Than thou
Routine
Concentrate
On where
You are going
After your
Life is complete
Your opinion
Of me
Does not
Define me
You do not
Know who I am
What I’ve seen
What I’ve
Been through
Stop being
So quick
To judge
And
Kill
People
Who are different
I am tired
Of you yelling
At the top
Of your lungs
About you
Being Christian
My life
Is not
For you
To judge
But you
Do it anyway
Telling me
My God
Will
Not love me
Because of
What I choose
To be
Or do
In my life
Yet he is
The one
That created me
So why do
You care
Where my soul goes
Heaven or Hell
It is not
Your problem
It is between
Me and my maker
He knows
Me better
Than anyone
That my heart
Is his
And filled
With his love
Pumping
Throughout me
He chooses
To gift me
The ability
To
Walk
Talk
Breath
Everyday
That his blessing
To me
You may not
See it
In his eyes
I’m unique
Special
And what
He created
Me to be
So let me be
Who I am
Suppose to be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Professional Liars”

We all know
Those
Type
Of people
Those
Pathological liars
They have
Never told
A truth
In their life
Even if their
Life depended
On it
Lying is
First and
Second nature
To them
They do it
Like breathing
Every inhale
And exhale
They take
And make
They engulf
The world with
Their toxicity
Killing
Anything
And everything
That’s good
Around
And in you
Painfully
And slowly
But when
You finally
Back off
And distance
Yourself
Out of
Self preservation
People look
At you
As if you
Are the devil
In the family
Asking
How could you
Hold a grudge
Towards your blood
And saying
You should
Be the bigger person
Turn the other cheek
To get slapped
Again
Hell no
It’s not
That type
Of party
I’ve turned
Enough cheeks
Now I’m black
And blue
All over
I’m tired
Of being
The bigger person
I didn’t do
Anything
Horrible
I just walked away
And that was
Best for me
My story
Is now a happily
Ever after
I had enough
I could not waste
No more time
On them
That’s why
You see a
Cold as ice
Demeanor
Towards them
I’ve played
The fool
Too many times
I’m tired of
Being their victim
Giving too
Much rope
For them to
Hang me
So stop trying
To change my
Mind
To make a truce
Between us
It does not
Benefit me
In the least
After they’ve
Lied
Stole
And
Cheated me
And still
Give no apology

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Waiting On Destiny”

This feeling
I’m feeling
Is foreign
To me
I do not
Feel
Like
Me
It’s a stranger
With my face
In front of me
Staring through the
Mirror
Right
At me
I am
A million miles
Away from
Where I want
To be
In my dreams
In my reality
I’m
No where
But in space
Floating about
Aimlessly
My life is
Not
A Happy one
Not
A Sad one
Either
I’m
Just part
Of
An existence
Not yet
Able to
Reach my
Full potential
And being who
I need to be
My hand is raised
Like
I’m in class
Waiting on
The teacher
To count me
I’m one of those
People
Waiting on
Destiny
I’m in line
For greatness
And I’m not moving
Until I see
The path
I should take
To get me there
The almighty has
Blessed and engrained
Patience inside
Of me
So I will wait
On him
And only him
To guide me
I know it
Will be marvelous
A phenomenon
That all will
Want to see
I will be
His masterpiece
Being what
I should be
And
Not what I want
To be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Only Truth Be Told”

With me
Or against me
Take heed
To my warning
A lie is
A deal breaker
In any type
Of relationship
With me
It is not
Me
You are saving
With your lies
But yourself
Be truthful
To avoid a decision
That is mine
To make
I am not afraid to
Live without you
In my life
I will have
No regrets
Do not
Come to me
Without
Your truth
Come quickly
With your answers
When I ask questions
That matter to me
Say it
Without thinking
Too much
To save face
Your lies
Will never
Give me comfort
So do not
Make it
Your only excuse
To avoid
The disappointment
Upon my face
There is a greater
Price to pay
For every lie
You kill
What was ever good
Between us
And replacing it
With empty space
Dividing us
So much
We will never
Be able to
Find our way back
To each other’s
Embrace
You can not have
It both ways
Either you
Live alone
In a house
Full of lies
Or
With me
In Truth
It’s only one world
I can live in
And I know
You know
Which place
Do not put it
On me
When you let
Your cowardness
Help
Lead you into
Pushing my hand
And choosing
To leave
After I find out
What you
Could not
Say
To my face

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cupid’s Plan”

I could not evade
And escape
Cupid’s arrows
Forever
I gave up
And allowed it to
Pierce me right
Through my heart
Creating a wonderful havoc
That uprooted my world
Today
Love and insanity
Took over me
Making me
Go against
All my rules
My common sense
Went out the window
I was caught
In a forceful attraction
Causing me to
Spin out of control
I’m in love
And in lust
With the one
And only
Person in this world
That is
My soulmate
My best friend
My confidant
Who knows me well
I was yours
I could not
Resist
I fell fast
And got entangled
Into your passionate gaze
Looking steadily
And intently
I felt
Confined and cornered
All my life
Until
My mind
Body
And Soul
Connected
On all levels
With yours
We became One
It was an
Overwhelming
Exhilarating
Joy
It’s like a dream
Come true
You
Wanting me
Needing me
And
Embracing our love
As we
Come together
Our clothes
Dropping to the floor
One by one
Teasing our loins
Anticipating
The feeling when
Will we feel
The passion
That is building up
Beneath these clothes
I’m begging
Please
Please
Kiss me
Caress me
And pentratrate
My walls
Fill me
With the utmost estascy
That is
Beyond
This realm
Of this
Destined love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stand Up For Yourself”

Today
Either you
Will rise
And start fighting
To win back
What is yours
Or keep sinking
Into the quicksand
That they put you in
You have to know
They are standing
Nearby and
Watching you
Die a slow death
And laughing
While
You are struggling
You don’t have
To be
Stuck between
A rock and
A hard place

Stop
Giving everything
And getting nothing
In return
From those
That don’t care
For you
Or have compassion
For your suffering
I don’t understand
Where is your dignity
Your backbone
To stand up for yourself
Do you like
Being preyed upon
Are you afraid
Of them
Hating you
Or getting mad
For you standing up
To them
And
Demanding respect
After they disrespected you
It is your right
To sometimes
Be selfish
You are giving
Too much
To the ungrateful
And they are using you
Taking your money
Your sanity
Just everything
That is good in you
When is it enough
For you
To say No
And keep
Something just for you
How is it so hard
For you
To put yourself
Before those that harm you
They give nothing
To uplift
Support
Or just love you
Stop being a
Meal ticket
That keeps giving
Until you are empty
Take charge
Of your destiny
Stop the complaining
And stand up to them
Be your own person
Or they will kill you
Take your spirit
Your will
And your soul
Leaving a shell
Behind
It’s time for a change
Before there
Is nothing
Left of you
To find

-Yellowbonewonda

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“In Your Feelings”

By: Yellowbonewonda

Just because
I don’t answer
When you call
Or talk to you
On a regular
Does not mean
I’m ignoring you
$hit rises
And falls
Without warning
Life happens
And human factors
Become unexpected parts
Of the damn equation
Assumptions
Will get you
Blacklisted
Your choices
Will be
To be burned
Recycled
Or buried somewhere
In the middle
Of nowhere
Don’t have
Conversations
In your head
And conclude
Before asking
Wait to see
If there is
A good reason
Check your attitude
Before you get
Your @ss handed to you
It’s not necessary
To become
A code 187
Murdering your chances
Because you didn’t
Come correct
Because of your
Biased conversations
Between
You
Yourself
And your @sshole
They are all wrong
In their three way
Conviction
Without a trial
To hear evidence
That opposed them
Get out of your feelings
You’re not the center
Of anyone’s universe
So take caution
Before approaching
Any situation
Nothing is
As it seems
What’s happening
In this world
Could be serious
And you are
In some unwarranted
Emotions
Choosing the wrong way
And now there is
A declaration
Of war
And you are
Being killed off
With no compassion
Empthy
Or sympathy
Because of your
Blind approach
On your decisions
To being froggy
Leaping before looking
Then crashing and burning

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“Going To Faraway Places”

I have
No worries
The heavenly father
Will bless
And replenish
What I’m needing
To keep on my journey
Those takers
Will continue
Even after I’m gone
On their destructive path
They are set on
Killing all beauty
Around them
I promise myself
I will be long gone
And out of reach
Far from that obliteration
That is them
I’ve learned from my past
I was too focused
On everyone
Except me
My energy
My love
Giving
All of me
Helping others
Neglecting myself
I’m not complaining
I gave it freely
But it was so draining
I finally had to recognize
That everyone
Does not
Deserve me
Who I am
As a person
What I offer
To the equation
For a long time
I’ve been
Malnourished
And
Dehydrated
Mentally
Physically
And
Emotionally
Not feeding myself
With nutritional substance
To substantial satisfy
Or fill me
I had no urge
Or visible belly bulge
That forced me
To unbutton
My pants
Before sitting
After eating
Some people are
Just takers
Taking all the good
And leaving
Footprints behind
Up and down your back
But whatever treasure
They think
They stole from me
Will
Diminish quickly
What they have
It’s too
Good and powerful
It will vanish
As they raise it to
Their mouth
Before consumption
Leaving them hungry
And Searching
To impoverish from
The next person
They see

-Yellowbonewonda

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