“I Value My Safety”

Why is it
That some people
Include me
In games
I don’t want
To play
Too many people
Putting me
In deadly situations
With riddles
That don’t
Make sense
And no
Plausible answers
To guess
I’m hanging
From
Death traps
I can not
Escape
There are no
Safety nets
To catch me
From sudden death

I’m a guareenteed
Loser
In this game
When there
Are no
Rules
To keep me safe
I can not
Understand
Why there are
People
Happy at
Putting me
In danger
Because
They believe
My safety is
Not a value
To them
I am not
Put here
To be
Played with
Or
Entertainment
For people
That are
Unhappy
With their
Life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“How Do You Know”

It’s easy
To be deceived
They come as
A teacher
A police officer
A family member
No one is exempted
To who
May be dangerous
Around children
I want to raise
A Healthy
Strong willed
Well rounded
Mentally stable
Productive
Compassionate
Individual
That will not
Allow
Any obstacle to
Discourage them
From
Reaching their goals
And doing their best
While using their
God’s given talent
To be happy
I will promise
To teach
And prepare them
For the concrete jungle
Help them
To not fall
Into the grasp
Of exploiters
My child
Any child
We need
To protect them
Stop
Calling them
Ugly
Stupid
And worthless
It lowers self-esteem
Making them
Easy prey
For the evil
To touch them
It’s lurking
And
Walking amoung us
On a daily
Ready to
Take advantage
Of their vulnerability
Demolishing their
Future dreams
For the price
Of their innocence
They will tell
Them lies
To gain their trust
Influencing them to
Depend on them
To give them love
And attention
That will not
Benefit them
In the least
I have to
Ask myself
How do I protect
And raise you
Keep you
Safe
I want a
Guarantee
Before I conceive you
That once I bring
You in this world
You will
Return the same
Way you left me
After you leave the nest
Will it be enough
To fill
You up
To capacity
With
My heart
My love
My everything
So many
Of these
Miserable
Horrible people
Want influence
And crush you
I’m so scared
Of the image
Seeing
My child
Broken
Defeated
And
Crying
Out of pain

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Don’t Go Backwards”

It’s a question
You need to ask
Yourself
If you are
In the middle
Of the ocean
With no lifeboats
Deployed
No lifevest to put on
Just endless water
What do you do
Drown or swim
To safety
Common sense
Would say swim
For your life
So why is it so
Hard for you
On land
To help yourself
When you are dry drowning
Surrounded by ignorant people
Why do you
Continue to overindulge with
Their nonsense
They are not
Looking out for your
Best interest
This life brings
Enough crap
Political views
That don’t
Help no one
But the rich
And powerful
Making them richer
Family secrets
Coming to light
Not hidden in the closet
Like they use to
These restless skeletons
Want to breath
Fresh air
And walk
Among us
They are speaking up
For their victims
Unlike their protectors
Friends that are
Enemies
Yet are friends
Frenemies
Damn that’s confusing
I rather be
By myself
Then be in that
Colossal mess
And last but least
The broken society
That hates
For no other reason
We all have
Slight differences
We all are human
With the same makeup
Blood Bones Organs
So why are people cruel
To one another
Screwing
Over the helpless
Kicking them down
While they are
Already on the ground
And
Begging for mercy

$hit is ridiculous
This crap just will not
Go down the toilet
It won’t
Flush away
It just keeps circling
Coming back up
To the surface
Taunting
Peaking over the rim
Meanwhile stinking up
The joint
Leaving you
Two choices
Either
Fix the problem
Or
Seek professional help
Because this clog
In your life
It’s a nuisance
You’re out of order
In need of repair
Stop
Struggling
For no reason
You’re not obligated
To save everyone
If you can’t save yourself
Tackle one thing at a time
Or you will be no use
To no one

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Things Within”

There is a war
Beneath my skin
No one sees
And I feel
It almost daily
Little people
Are inside
Of me
Killing me
Slowly
With torture
I feel
Little
Daggers
Piercing me
From the
Inside out
They are
Trying to
Break me
By any means
Necessary
Through
Scratches
Cuts
And
Gapping wounds
Breaking down
My defenses
One by one
They are
Everywhere
It’s a hostile takeover
I can not
Stop them
It’s an explosion
Of craters
Forming
As big
As the Grand Canyon
My skin
Is covered
By a red color
It’s leaking
As if
Someone shot me
And reloaded
Making sure
Of no survival
I can not
Replenish enough
Fluids
To save me
My heart
Can not
Take this stress
It’s weakening
Me
I am dying
By the minute
I’m falling
Into pieces
Shattering
To a point
Of never
Being put back
Together
Am I the only
One seeing this
Does that mean
I’m going crazy
Is
My perception
Of what
I’m going through
Too vivid
In imagination

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Body With No Soul”

By: Yellowbonewonda

As I sit
Alone in this
Empty mausoleum
Once called our home
I am seeing hallucinations
Or is it
An apparition
Of you
A lost spirit
With no soul
Not present
Or accountable
Of the destruction
That is going on in
This house
It is
No longer a home
For the living
Release me from
This curse
Of you constantly
Haunting me
And not loving me
We are lost
And only holding on
Because we are familiar
To one another
But that’s not
What love is
We are either
Together
Or going our separate ways
Out of survival
So we can fill
This emptiness inside
That is close to the core

We can not
Keep living
In this
Parallel world
Where you
Don’t love me
I can’t bare to live
A lifetime
Outside of your heart
A Castaway
Left on a deserted island
Surrounded by sharks
These women are out
For my blood
They smell it
In the water
They are ready
To devour me
Tear me limb
From limb
To take my place
And stand in my shoes
As if I was never
There
In the first place
Why do
You put me
Through this heartache
I would have never
Envisioned
You ever mistreating me
You’re losing
Me completely
And you don’t care
Unless someone
Else starts to see me

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“Stop Killing My Children”

Yes ma’am
No ma’am
Is what I’m teaching them
My child
Is my responsibility
There are no
Uncontrollable
Outbursts
Talking back
Fighting
Cussing at anytime
Telling me no
When I tell them
To do something
Their homework
Done
Their room
Clean
Graduating
A must
Book smarts
Street smarts
The legal hussle
Of this system
On check
Striving to be their best
Being
Something more
Than a thug
Or a thot
Being hard headed
And loose
Is not an option
They are
Prepared and avoiding
You
The ones with guns
Ready to kill them
Coming from my womb
Don’t try to
Slide my child
On the assembly line
Tattooing
CPS property
On their ass
Telling them to call
You
When I discipline
And correct them
This is not an unlimited
Reproduction
Making children
So you can kill them
When they are misbehaving
Out in these streets
Where guns are easily
Accessible
You won’t tie my hands
I am the Queen
In this castle
And
My King is right
Beside me
Supporting me
In my rants
Together or not
We are their protectors
Teachers
And
Nuturers
The creators of these
Little ones
In this house
We established for them
To follow
Rules and regulations
We are preparing
Them
To live
And
Be
Part of
A productive society
But
If you want them
Come and get them
Take care of them
Raise them to be
What you call
Decent human beings
Disposable children
To be killed off
Lied on
By the media
Giving a poor excuse
Why they deserved to die
Saying
They were
Part
Of a broken home
Where no one loved them
A disgrace
A delinquent
Given
A death sentence
In these streets
Not my kids
They
Will not fall
Through those
System cracks
These future
Kings and Queens
Will be
Making moves
Like champions
Building empires
Unstoppable
Pillars of the community

Yellowbonewonda

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“Family Ties”

We are caught
In governmental
Red tape
We are legalized strangers
Linked as family
Based on a common ancestor
Stating that we are
Blood bound relatives
Yet it still does not
Meet my definition
Of family
If what you know
About me
Can be found
On the internet
In public record
My name
My birthday
Possibly my favorite color
Any stranger
Can be family
If they want
To know me superficially
I want something more
In-depth
A real connection
Someone I can depend on
That will love me
With no ulterior motives
I don’t want to rely on
What I was told
From birth
You are kin
And I have to accept it
I won’t
Love you
Unconditionally
After being
Lied
Robbed
and taken advantage of
At some point
You have to release them
Enemies as family
Is not what I’m
Looking for
Falling without
A safety net
Crashing and burning
A horrid death
At the hands of
These so called people
Because of history
My survival instincts
Flight or fight
Kicks in
To protect
Myself
I don’t have time
For this foolery
Because I was told
You were family

-Yellowbonewonda

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“No One Else Is Invited”

There are
Two invitations
To the unknown
One for you
The other for me
No need to RSVP
Time is
Infinite
Location
Where we can be free
To do what adults do
Being entrapped
In a
Seduction dance
That can go
All night
Carrying out
All of our little
Nasty fantasies
It’s time
To explore
Together
Uncharted territory
Let us map
A new discovery
Down my chest
Between the mountains
To my secret valley
A paradise
Where we can
Moan
And groan
Together
Touching
Caressing
Kissing
Each other
Intertwining
Our bodies
Until we reach estascy

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Emergency Heart Surgery”

There is a foreign object
In my chest
Its been there
For a long time
The pain
Has dulled
But the nuisance of it
Is causing
Difficulties
In my breathing
The doctor said
He can not give me
Anymore time
Emergency surgery
Is set for today
To remove
A dead piece
Of my heart
That is you
I’m ready
To risk it all
To be free
I need
To let go
So I can
Breath
Without the toxicity
That is killing me
I can not longer be
Second to last
I’m not excepting
Your foolery
Your intentions
To break me
It is over
Submitting
Is unacceptable
Not an option
If the cost
Is losing
My dignity
It’s too high of a price
Of being your lady
Only on special occasions
I am no one’s accessory
I am an original
One of a kind
Refusing to be
Boxed up
Collecting dust
Looking pretty
You don’t
Play with me
On a daily
The world
Is at my door
All I need is to
Explore

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Popping Your Cork”

Too often
Beautiful
Vibrant
Intelligent women
Lose all common sense
When it comes to dudes
Picking at the bottom
Of the barrel
Thugs
Broke back
Pretend preachers
Down-and-out ballers
And left over
Take aways
That surely have spoiled
They are damaged goods
Sold as is
Damn duds
No return
No refund
No bargain
In the end
Two choices
Either
Stick with him
Or
Dump him
No one else wants
Your broken toys
If every woman
Step back
And notice
Something magnificent
Within them
A geyser
Growing
And
Ready to explode
It’s an easy outcome
That will happen
Depends on the man
Standing before her
A good man
Knows how to tender
That passion
Turning it
Into blissfulness
That gives
Back
Over and over again
But
A Boy
In a man’s skin
A guy
That has no goals
For his future
Won’t amount to $hit
Won’t be $hit
And is full of $hit
And constantly
Looking
To ignite her fuse
Waiting to see
Her blow
Just to call
Her crazy
And out of control
This is a man
That doesn’t love her
Won’t help her
Or don’t want her happy
Because he’s an @sswhole
Everyone is a threat to him
Because everyone
Sees his true self
Forget about decorum
It is time
To
Go insane
Get your point across
Let them have it
Pop your cork
Let it flow
Full steam ahead
Gain your sanity
Say everything
Bottled up
No one has the right
To walk all over you
Leaving you broken
And confused
Asking questions
Why your life
Is the way it is
Or
How come people
Treat you bad
I say it
It’s time you take control
And leave
Dumb @sses
In your rearview
Far in your past

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Protecting My People”

I take on the job
Free of charge
As a lioness
Being mean
Instinctive
Territorial
And protective
Watching over
Hidden diamonds
Covered
In the blackness
Inside the deepest
Darkest cave
Just sparkling
Bright and
Full of potential
Some people
Just need
To be
Protected
In some moments
I stand up
And defend
The innocence
That lives
Within
People
I call
Them
Pure hearts
And yes
I am their keeper
Sheltering them
From those
That are
Evil
Walking among
Normal people
I will pledge
To do my best
To not allow
Their extinction
They are amazing
Wonderful
Beautiful
Human beings
People take
Advance of them
Because they can
Stealing their
Pureness
Stunting their
Flawless
Happy
Joyful
Character
By
Abusing
Neglecting
Tossing them
Around
And throwing
Them in the garbage
I want to
Shake them
To get some
Sense in them
To stop being
Their predators
Entertainment
I want to
Help them
Get their life together
And
Start acknowledging
A worth
Of
Being someone
That has a future
Not being doormat
Walked on
Day and night
Taken advantage of
Because of their
Good nature

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Patiently Waiting”

I can not pretend
To like you
Love you
Understand you
Or care for
Your well-being
I don’t
Do fakeness
My face
Mirrors my emotions
And my body
Reacts
To bull$hit
A built
In lie detector
Ready to go haywire
So
Please keep your distance
I’m afraid your propinquity
It may lead me
Into temptation
To act crazy
I’m everready
To put
My hands on you
Releasing all
My pinned up anger
Only for you
What you do
How you breath
Being in proximity of me
Makes me suspicious
I’m locked and loaded
My sonar is always
Tracking
Waiting on your
Boldness
To approach me
I will choose my battles wisely
But you come into my space
We going to war
All ammunition
Will be spent
If you know
What’s good for you
Keep on your side
And I’ll stay on mine
We will live
A full healthy life
Of being cooperative
Where we can coexist

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Going To Faraway Places”

I have
No worries
The heavenly father
Will bless
And replenish
What I’m needing
To keep on my journey
Those takers
Will continue
Even after I’m gone
On their destructive path
They are set on
Killing all beauty
Around them
I promise myself
I will be long gone
And out of reach
Far from that obliteration
That is them
I’ve learned from my past
I was too focused
On everyone
Except me
My energy
My love
Giving
All of me
Helping others
Neglecting myself
I’m not complaining
I gave it freely
But it was so draining
I finally had to recognize
That everyone
Does not
Deserve me
Who I am
As a person
What I offer
To the equation
For a long time
I’ve been
Malnourished
And
Dehydrated
Mentally
Physically
And
Emotionally
Not feeding myself
With nutritional substance
To substantial satisfy
Or fill me
I had no urge
Or visible belly bulge
That forced me
To unbutton
My pants
Before sitting
After eating
Some people are
Just takers
Taking all the good
And leaving
Footprints behind
Up and down your back
But whatever treasure
They think
They stole from me
Will
Diminish quickly
What they have
It’s too
Good and powerful
It will vanish
As they raise it to
Their mouth
Before consumption
Leaving them hungry
And Searching
To impoverish from
The next person
They see

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Confused By You”

How do you decipher
A mathematical equation
That was thought
To have been solved
Twenty years ago
The teacher approved
The answer
Saying you was correct
Then out of nowhere
You get
An outdated letter
Saying you failed
After they recalculated
All of the
So called data
I thought
Those years
Were behind me
Dead and Buried
Six feet deep
And a extra few feet
Cause I jumped in the grave
And stomped it
It’s restless spirits
A rising
Ghosts are haunting
Chanting in
Repeative whispers
Saying strange things
Like
I love you
I’ve missed you
And want to see you
It’s a miracle
Their eyes have opened
They’ve gained their sight
They finally noticed
I wasn’t there beside them
All this time
I spent a lifetime
Of detachment
Hiding in plain sight
Now I am no longer invisible
I’m so hesitant
To find out the answer
Do you
Want
My forgiveness
My tears
The broken pieces of my heart
To mend them
I’m not sure
I will be able to hand
Them all over
So careless
What is your
Ulterior motive
There’s a reason
For this call
You’re not telling me
The whole truth
Let’s count to three
Rip off
This bandaid quickly
Cut to the chase
Throwing it all
At once
The kitchen sink included
Because that day
I stood before you
Pleading my case
Trying so hard
Overexurting myself
Putting all my effort
In explaining
How priceless
And irreplaceable
I am
I still can not comprehend
How
I had to sale
Myself
As if I was brand new car
I was not a thing
I was a person
With feelings
You just wasn’t
Interested then
So how come
Now
I’m important

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Don’t Make Your Issues Mine”

He has a lot of growing
Up to do
He knows what
He needs to do
To get back into
My good graces
That’s if he does not
Want to lose
His future
The woman
He wants to call
Wifey
And
The future mother
Of his unborn children
There is no comparison
Between
You and I
The problem
With hoes
And hoodrats
You try
Too hard
Playing on the fence
It’s more
To what’s
Between your legs
That will keep him
You have
To have
Intelligence
And beauty within
The type of woman
I am
And what I do
To keep any man
Is my secret
You think I am not
Aware of my surroundings
I see you thirsty
Hoes
You are irrelevant
To even try to compare
His lust for you
And his love for me
We are not
In the same area code
He wasn’t mine
When you met him
He was free
To do as he pleased
You and he
Did what
You did together
That’s on you
He did
What dogs do
While off their leashes
Running around
The neighborhood
Humping every
8itch in heat
It’s funny
You caught
Feelings
Stop using me
As the excuse
On why you
Can’t keep him
The best kept secret
Is that
When he’s with you
No matter the distance
He’s craving me
Dreaming of me
Wanting me
All day and night
I laugh
When you say
What’s between
His legs is magic
Yet that magic
Didn’t keep me
I got something
More in value
The key to his heart
You have fun
Doing what you do
I’m not scared to lose him
You can’t take
What’s not yours
In the first place
If I really
Wanted him
I will call him
But in our circumstance
He needs to grow up
And be the man
A leader
So until then
He will wish for
The woman
That is me
That can only fill his desires

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Where Are You Going”

When it comes
To Mother Nature’s
Wrath
She has no plan
She doesn’t care
About your circumstances
Floods
Earthquakes
Brush Fires
Snow storms
Droughts
Are thrown at us
She is blind
Like Lady Justice
We can’t do anything
But run and hide
Hoping she’s not mean
Or spiteful enough
To keep chasing
After us
When she fights
Nothing is fair
She throws
Houses
Buildings
Cars
Drowns
Anyone and everyone
Devastating nations
She is an equal opportunist
That speaks a language
Everyone understands
Globally
Her wrath
Spreads
All over
She doesn’t care
About anything
She has two questions
To ask
All of humanity
Live or die
And whatever your
Personal preference
On who you love
Political stance
And who you hate
Is irrelevant
Your fighting
Is not her problem
That’s your cross to bare
If you are
Rich or poor
Black or white
Democrat or Republican
Gay or Straight
Her mission is to
Destroy or let live
She is judge and jury
Of the physical land
That we live on
She doesn’t care about
Where your soul
Goes
Heaven or Hell
That is up to
A much greater power
Until then
She will show her truth
Through her actions
She doesn’t lie
Or make promises
To spare anyone
Over another
She accepts no bribes
Money can’t buy
Your life
No one
Is safe
Your
Last battle
With good and evil
Is based on your actions
Before her rampage
Of this Earth
So pray to your maker
And be absolved of your sins
Get to high ground
Stay out of her path
And hope she doesn’t
Change directions
Coming to your hiding place
Wiping out
Your existance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Wasting Your Time”

”
You have an
Invisible target
On your back
Without knowing
The answer to why
Some people
Are hateful
Hurtful
And all about theirself
Is simple
It’s something they
Didn’t get
As a child
A hug
A kiss
Or a good old spanking
But now
That they’ve
Become an adult
They are acting out
Or is it just possible
They were
Born that way
Cruel
Heartless
And an @$$
Who knows
I’m not diagnosing
Whatever they are searching for
Be careful
They see what
They need
Inside of you
They are
In their
Delusion
Wanting to see
Someone else wading
In the same crap
Called their life
It’s funny
They actually believe
Their life
Is better
Yet they don’t know
You from Adam or Eve
So stop stressing yourself
In asking
Why and how come
It’s not personal
You got caught
In their hunting scope
And became tonight’s dinner
Wrong place
Wrong time
You are their pawn
In
A Game
Called misery loves company
And it feel like
A Chainsaw massacre
They don’t care
To see no one else’s
Pain
It’s a formed habit
They’ve developed
Self absorbed bastards
Believing
They deserve
What’s not theirs
And your an obstacle
To defeat
Call it what it is
Stop looking for
Answers
It is too
Exhausting
Choose your
Sanity
Don’t be a victim
Be a survivor
You will never understand
How some people are
Just ignore them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“On A Mission”

My heartbeat
Is unsteady
My rhythm
Is off
I can’t dance
To the beat
It feels awkward
My mission is clear
To follow the source
Ending my discomfort
I’m ready
For action
A ride or die chick
In savage mode
Ready to
Just do it
Moving every mountain
In my way
There will be no mercy
My veins are pumping
With the deadliest of venom
There will be
No more waiting
Get out of my way
Slow people
Get to the right
The left is for speeding
I don’t have time
To be caught
In your oblivion
I can not
Sit calmly
Enduring this torture
I’m
Fidgety and anxious
Feeling
Stuck in
Park
I’m Ready
Just release me
Let my alter ego
Take over
Getting behind the wheel
Driving like
The car was stolen
If I don’t win
I die
My eyes are focus
I’m seeing in 3D
My foot is
Pushing hard
On the gas

I’m tasting my victory
Seeing corks popping
And drinking a six litre
Of Dom Pérignon Rose Gold
I am going to be
Your champion
And rescuer
I’m coming
On the mark
Get set
Go
The flag
Has dropped
I’m
Zero to Three hundred
In 13.61 seconds
I’m determined
To do
The impossible
To be your Earth bound
Savior

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Sand Storms”

Without getting
Swept away
And torn apart
Everything
Is so unpredictable
I’m looking on
To new possibilities
Waiting
On my
Brand new energy
To change
My life
For the better
I want to be
Pushed to the brink
Of losing all sanity
It’s a perfect storm
Inside of me
Chaos and order
Simultaneously
These words
Come to me
Forming without notice
Popping up
Like sand tornadoes
In the desert
Out of nowhere
Spinning rapidly
Only to die down
To pop up again
To engulf my body
I’m falling
And
It catches me
Pulling me
Into its chest
Where I can listen
To its heart beating
While protecting me
And allowing me
To witness
As it
Destroys the old
Part of me
Everything is
In slow motion
I’m watching the chaos
While calm inside
Seeing all my words
Come to my grasp
I am grabbing
And arranging
Building it
Into a masterpiece
Being coherent
And providing
Perfect sense
While showing my
Vulnerability
I am open
And preparing
And
Transforming
My creations
Into melodies
Hoping all will
Listen
Hearing all the lyrics
I want to
Open closed minds
And soften
Hardened hearts
Giving my all
In every poem
So the impossible
Will be possible

-Yellowbonewonda

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“First Sight Delight”

He thought of me
As a mystic
Almost as if
I was a paranormal
A clairvoyance
Of some type
A magical creature
That came from a made
Up story
Getting inside of him
His
Mind
Body
And
Soul
I made little effort
In infiltrating him
I did it with no warning
It was beyond
The normalcy
Of everyday patterns
His life was going
And the day we met
He was taking
His life back
From every
Demanding body
Job
Family
Friends
He wanted more
And he put
A stop to it
Not missing
Another day
Of nature’s beauty
He began
Carrying his head up
High
Eyes scanning
His surroundings
It was something
Pulling him
Directing him
To the here and now
And when our eyes met
It was glorious
It was at first sight
I had already integrated
Inside of him
Causing a sensory overload
A new vibranance of life
Sparked
He was filled
With true love’s
Healing
His loneliness
And empty heart
Was no more
It was no denying it
The magnetic charge
That was building
With such strength
A connection that
Spiked
With an overwhelming
Love and devotion
So unimaginable
It consumed all the air
And buried our bodies

Under a ton
Of bricks
Dumped all at once
On top of us
It was so
Confining
Yet Surprisingly
Comforting
And calming
This story I tell
Although you are reading
These words
It’s still unexplainable
Common words
Give it
No justice
Describing
A love
So fullfuling
It’s
Everlasting
And powerful
Not diluted
In its purest form
That is bigger than
The both of us
Unstoppable
Invincible
And growing stronger
And stronger

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Before You Judge Be Open”

Stop living in
Your comfortable
Blacked out bubble
Form an attachment
Other than society’s
Normal
To hate one person
Over the other
Race
Gender
Or over
Someone’s else’s drama
A friend
A family member
Hating to hate
Someone’s presence
Making you develop
Those traits
Of ignorance
And prejudice
Without knowing
About those
“Others”
That are breathing
The same air
As you do
Is almost a crime
Against humanity
To miss those
Blessings
Because of your unfamiliarity
Causes a mass hysteria
That is contiguous
With no medicine
Because someone is different
This is
When it’s important
To open
Your eyes
And remove those blinders
To see pass
Someone’s physical features
To ask
Who they are
Stop passing judgement
Don’t keep listening
To break room gossip
Everyone has a unique story
Stop pushing your beliefs
On those that don’t want them
Believing that people
Should feel
Like you feel
In every situation
Is ludicrous
Voice your thoughts
Then
Back off
And watch what develops
A place of civility
And good feeling
Of people being
Human
And respectful
Without judgement
Let God
Do his job
And make
Your effort
To
Treat everyone
As individuals
With a clean slate
Beginning
Their own story
A gift that is priceless
To all
To be welcomed
As a person

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stop Playing With Me”

You want me
You need me
You don’t call me
But you love me
I’m chasing
My tail
As if it’s my arch enemy
My mind
Is swirling
I’m not comprehending
That
It’s my own damn tail
I’m drooling
And craving
Revenge on
You got me twisting
Like a human pretzel
What do you want from me
Better yet
Get the hell away from me
I feel you are just
Coming back to demolish
What was left of me
That you wasn’t able
To get the first time
You came through
Devastating me
I’m feeling that familiar
Feeling
The hairs
On the back of my neck
Standing at attention
It’s your weird
And creepy presence
That has my body
Overreacting
Are stalking me
Spying on me
Shadowing me
I know
You are waiting to see
When I am happy
To tear that joy
Out of me
Hacking it
To pieces
You are
A life force leech
Sucking all the good
From me
Then leaving me
In a whirling vortex
That makes me dizzy
I have to step back
To reevaluate
Gain a new perspective
I can not
Find my bearings
Anymore
My equilibrium is off
I don’t know
Which way is up
Or if I’m falling
While standing still
I feel my life
Is upside down
The ground
Is where the sky should be
And the sky
Is where the ground should be
I’m not safe
By no means
I’m either going
To fall
Splattering on the ground
Or continue
Drifting into space
For eternity
There is no middle ground for me
Staying in between
Anything
It is not an option
Or being in the gray area
I refuse to let you stay there
I can not
Allow you to float
There indefinitely
We are not
Even in the same books
I’m in Romance and Non-fiction
You’re in Drama and Crime Story
How did I let you
Get away with
Telling
Half truths
Or
Flat out lies
I sit here
Engulfed in my thoughts
Self-reflecting
Questioning how
This puzzle
Can’t be
Piece together
It’s missing
All it’s vital pieces
Was this your intention
To hide
Them from me
I’m finally acknowledging
There is no type of closure
And no way to rebuild from
All the trauma
So let’s just call this
What it is
Uninhabitable territory

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Closest And Longest Relationship”

I’ve been threatened
With empty threats
My whole life
I was never afraid
Of her
She would
Always tell me
If I wasn’t her child
I’d be dead long ago
I won’t tell any lies
I did test her
Whenever I felt
A need for adrenaline
To run like the wind
So she didn’t catch me
Somedays
I actually thought
I saw hot scalding steam
Come out of her
It was so comical
Bursting out of her head
Ears
And
Mouth
Capable of making
Third degree burns
All over my body
Yet I have no wounds
Scars
Or a dysfunctional relationship
CPS
Was never called
I was always too slippery
I’m all grown up
The same individual
In a supersized package
No longer a child
Now a woman
But I know she’ll always
Have an open contract
On me
And in fine print
It states
She’s the only one
That has permission
To take my life
As she was the one
That gave it to me
That woman
I call Mama
She knows
Who I am
And knows my attitude
Falls between
Mean $itch
And don’t care
Very frequently
I am
What her
And her village
Raised me to be
A great mixture
Of no nonsense
No drama
A lot of Love
Compassion
Straight truth
And
A whole lot of honesty
Mixed
Very thoroughly
I’m not perfect
By any means
Never have been
Never will be
I have my hang ups
Nonchalant attitude
Speak my mind
Without a filter
Mind my own
Damn business
Maneuvering through life
Trying
To not
Be put
In anybody’s
Bull $hit
You will never
Catch me
Ear hustling
A conversation
I barely listen
To the person
Talking directly
To me
I zone out
On a regular
I lack the ability
To keep
My attention
Focused on
The blah blah blahs
Everyone sound like
Charlie Brown’s teacher
I am not pretending
To be
Mother Teresa
I have no mission
To save
The world
The only agenda
Thus far
Is making
Sure my crazy lady
That was born to birth me
Has what she needs
She will never need
To beg from
Anybody
I’m
The first and last in line
Taking on the
Responsibility
I don’t know
How to be selfish
She asks for it
I take care of it
She
Will never be
Something I can’t manage
We grew up
As kids
Side by side
Thick as thieves
Together
No distance
Is too far
To travel
When my heartbeat
Skips a beat
Or flatlines
I’m dropping everything
Running as if I was an Olympian
Breaking record
Breaking time
Winning the gold medal

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Look Closer To Her Face”

For every moment
Of happiness
There is sorrow
In the hearts
Of every girl and woman
As
A daughter
When she comes in the world
She cries for her first breath
Not knowing the world around her
To be safe
As
A mother
She sees the world
At its worst
She cries for her love ones life
Hoping they come home safely
Every night
As
A grandmother
When her world comes to an end
She cries for peace
To wash over
Everyone she leaves behind
Hoping they
Will be happy
And remember her in their hearts
In her life
There are more than a million tears
That will go unnoticed
That will flow
Many times down her
Beautiful face
That you can trace
By looking
From her eyes down to her cheeks

Every teardrop will be bigger than
The next
Echoing louder than the other
Making huge puddles
Around her feet
Gathering throughout her life
Causing waves that could take out nations
She has carried many burdens
Many times over
In a world of many wrongs
Making the strongest spirit
Feel powerless
Impossible to protect those she cherish
Because her family thinks she’s crazy
Overprotective
Or a mess
She knows the truth
In this day and age
Her maternal instincts
Are fined tuned
To her loves
From the moment they leave
And return
Where they are considered safe
So no matter
How many times
You say don’t worry
She will
Wait and
Think
Of the what Ifs
Whenever she feels
Evil is lurking
She is always praying for
Everyone’s safety
Hers
Yours
Everybody’s
Everyday
Nonstop
So I beg you to understand
A woman may cry many tears
Throughout her life
But the thing is
To stop
Letting them go unnoticed
Wipe her tears
And appreciate her worry
Knowing she is the one that loves
Unconditionally
With every part of her being
Stop being so dismissive
Because you don’t feel
What she feels
She is grandmother
Mother and daughter
With a loving heart
So she is valid

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What Life Could Be”

You must have been
An angel
Heaven sent
I was caught
In a daze
As my eyes
Met yours
To my surprise
A sparkle
Illuminating within them
Gave me peace
I couldn’t move
As you vanquished
All my misery
And negativity
Pushing
The darkness
Within me
Into the light
No more things
That go bump
In night
They’ve stopped haunting
Me
For the first time in my life
You’ve done miracles
That no one
Else could do
It’s as if I’ve died
And gone to heaven
Surrounded by the warmth of God’s grace
Finally fulfilled
Walking through gardens
Of blossoming fruits and flowers
That blossom for eternity
Where everything is plentiful
With no reason to return
To this awful place
You are a true master
Of all beasts
To calm all of them
Within me
As you took your chance
With a passionate embrace
Pulling me into you
As you cupped my face

When your lips
Touched mine
I felt our heartbeats
Become one
Giving me the true meaning
Of being loved
And feeling safe
I was lost for so long
After wondering
Aimlessly
Going in cirles
Chasing dreams
That would vanish
When I got close
But
With one kiss
Planted a seed in me
Of pure happiness
Nothing else mattered
A bubble surrounded us
As the world went silent
And everything froze
Into place
I didn’t know
That falling in love with you
Could be so sudden
But it felt like I known you
All my life
To bring me
Such a beautiful gift
And a promise
Of
Peace
Love
Security
And happiness
For the rest of my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Confidence Not Conceited”

I walk with pride
Head held high
Leaving footprints
Behind
Showing you where
I’ve come from
And where I’m heading
If you think to follow
My path
Keep up
I’m not slowing down
I’m walking with a purpose
Not going in circles
I’m focused
I will go
As far as my thick luscious legs
Will carry me
I am not conceited
By no means
Just taught
To weed out the bullies
That would call me
Names Otherthan
My given
Having self awareness
Is my greatest power
To be an individual
With high self-esteem
To beat those that don’t
At a game
That they can not play with me
Because I’ve already won
Not stooping to their level
Just by being me
Something they don’t know about
It’s just mandatory
For a fighter
To know for a fact
No one can break me
Or hinder me from my purpose
Because after I was made
The mold was broken
Making no efforts
To duplicate
My combination of genes
Was deliciously put together
And in that
There was a magnificent creation
Of a confident warrior
Not afraid to say
I am special
And when I look in a mirror
The reflection
Staring back at me
Is a beautiful queen
That has her own power

My smile is described to me as warming
Friendly and comforting
To those that are willing
To get to know me
I give off a scent
So sweet and alluring
That smell like carmel
As though
It’s been poured all over me
From head to toe
I always have a following
Of pets and children
And I think that’s the reason
But what do I know
It’s whatever it maybe
I’m just guessing

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Read The Disclaimer”

In any kind of relationship
I encounter
My love is the most guarded
Part of me
My sensitive side
My vulnerable side
It’s exciting and contagious
I’m selective in my VIPs
That may see
Or experience it
It comes at a high price
No one can afford
It’s priceless
And valued more than any materialistic thing on this planet
That are man made
And have a price tag
Of cash value
When I feel love and loyalty is reciprocated
I see the beauty of creativity
In the smallest detail
Quality outdoes quantity to me
My bond with you is for life
I just ask you
To take consideration
That
This is a piece of me
Once given
Can’t be given back
The same way
It can only heal
Leaving ugly scars
And I won’t be able to cover it
That’s why I beg you to
Please
Agree before you take it
To promise
That you will nurture and protect it
From this day to eternity
To truly see it
At it’s fullest blossom
I don’t give it
Just to anyone
I will always
Disclose it in a disclaimer
In black and white
And full blown color
So it’s not misunderstood
Or taken lightly
Read the fine print and hear me
On the importance of how to take care of it
My love is a special edition
Once you’ve been loved by me
It will be very unlikely
That you will ever forget the experience
I’m very bold
And very direct
My intentions
Are unfortgettable
I leave no doubt of my feelings
Extremely forward
And self assured
Sometimes I come across
As an aggressive
Or mean as some may describe me
But I’m leaving nothing to chance
There are no head games
What you see is
What you get
I tell you exactly what I want and what I like
I have no what ifs
Running through my head
At night
My words I speak
Come with no regrets
I have a fire
That burns bright and hot
If you are not ready for it
It will burn you to a crisp
Loyalty and honesty is pivotal to a solid foundation
With me
I protect and encourage anyone I love
To be at their best
And be better than the rest
Not letting no one speak ill of them
In my presence
It’s beneath me to just “quit”
On someone or something
If I find no evidence to support
The crimes they’ve done against me
But when I do the find evidence
It will be swift judgement
So don’t betray me
Because it will be immediate
When your chances will be
Permanently revoked
And you will be
Without the fulfillment of my deepest love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Animal Insincts”

I’m reduced to
Waiting for someone
To feed me my food
Through a closed
Fortified door

People still feel my frustration
Fearing my aggressiveness
Afraid of my sharp teeth
And razor cut claws
These prison guards know
How much I hunger for freedom
And if they make one slip up
I won’t waste my opportunity
They think I am the lesser of humanity
That my life is not valuable as any other life
On this Earth
I watch as they Kill us
One by one as if it’s for sport
Mounting our heads on their wall
As if it was a fair fight
Using bullets
Tazers and tranquilizer darts
Pretending to be the ultimate predator
But come at me without your weapons
And you will see my aggressive nature
I have been a caged animal
For so long
Captured by man
Taken from my home
Separated from my pride
A magnificent beast
I was
Full of life
No one could compare me
To any other
I turned heads by my shining grace
I was a majestic royal
I made the laws of the lands
Even though it’s confusing
I was feared by everyone
And loved by all
Top of the food chain
Inside my own domain
Now I’m reduced to
People’s amusement
They point and laugh
At my sadness
I’m stuck in this cage
Missing my home
Imprisoned for the rest of my life
I’m disappearing
Diminishing to a mere house pet
I must remember everyday
And not be broken down
I am a fierce predator
That stands in front of you
I have strong bloodlines
Coursing through my veins
Calming my spirit
Encouraging me to imagine
The crisp air back home
Feeding the predator in me
I am not just an animal
And it doesn’t
Give you
The right
To erase my kind
As if we don’t matter
I am a determined
To get back to my family
You will not be
Stuffing or mounting me
Any time in the near future

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Breaking Down”

I have not done it in awhile
But I had a good reason
My body was not prepared
For the new stretches

Muscles have weakened
Stiff and not as limber
As it once was
Only a few years ago

I bent over to
Touch my toes
As I came up
I stopped

Suddenly half way up
I grabbed
Under my breast
Swelling had already set in

As big as my palm
Increasing by the second
Almost covering half my body
Over my ribs

It felt so unnatural
All I could do was
Hold on to dear life
To a chair arms length away
from me

The pain was nothing
I could walk off
My eyes teared up
Someone noticed

Causing panic all around me
People rushing to my rescue
My silence and facial expressions
Said it all

I couldn’t speak
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t breathe
I could only hear the person

Standing next to me
Holding me up
Saying
Take a slow

Deep breath
Breathe breathe
Don’t tense up
It wasn’t working

The attention of everyone staring
Made me more anxious
I was panicking
The surges were hitting me

Worser than the other
Getting rapid and stronger
Coming one after another
Not giving me a chance to catch my breath

Don’t touch me
Don’t move me
Played in my head
Just leave me be

I can get through this
Don’t bother
It was as if something was moving
Under my chest outward

It felt like a ripple effect
As if someone
Had thrown a pebble
Into a body of still water

Causing
A sound so clear
But faint
And if you turned away

Before the pebble hit
You miss the awesomeness
In seeing something so small
Causing water

To move in rapid motion
Creating mini
Circles
Expanding bigger and bigger

Until it disappears
But to me
It was not awesomeness
It was pure torture

So bad I felt like I was having
An out of body experience
Escaping for a moment
Until it was safe

To re-enter
I would not
Wish this pain
On my worst enemy

I hate being this broken
Helpless
And so angry
Because no one knows how to fix me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Shadow Games”

I am not satisfied
Not by the food I eat
Not by the career I chose
Not even my purpose in this life

I question myself on a daily
Where am I going
In this lifetime
I have been wondering aimlessly
Far too long

I am hungry for something
That feels so far
Out of my reach
This craving has created sleepless nights
Making me delirious and crazy

It has me spinning in circles
Chasing my tail
I am so clueless
I do not know what I want

Or what direction to go
I am a dog looking for my bone
Unsure
Where I buried it

It seems I’ve been searching
For what I’ve been missing inside myself
So long it’s becoming an unsolvable mystery
My anxiety has been building up

Feels like a volcano
Ready to erupt
Flowing out Hot lava
Burning everything it touches

This hunger of mine
Is a torturous thing
Never giving me peace
My stomach is always rumbling

As if I am starving
But I skip no meals
I have always cleared my plate
I eat everything

Getting my nourishment
It’s not enough
I have never felt full
A familiar emptiness

That has been with me
Since my first breath
That has grown stronger and stronger
Day after day

I am being pulled
In all directions
I feel I’m coming undone
I am afraid

That what I’m searching and craving for
May never be found
My hunger is leading me blindly
Only to have me chasing shadows

-Yellowbonewonda

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