“Trapped By Pain’s Games”

More intimate
Than any
Of my relationships
It has been
Part of me
It knows me
Inside
And
Out
Pain
A sneaky
Cunning
Scheming
Devious
Deceitful
Unscrupulous
Son of a *itch
Has either
Been
My tormentor
Torturing me
Trying to break me
Into nothingness
Or
My lover
Loving on me
Caressing me
Sending me
Into ecstasy
Then causing
Me to cry
Afterwards
Because it
Walked out
Leaving me
For just
A moment
So I could
Panic
And
Think it
Is not coming back
It has been
Doing this
Continuously
Around the clock
Nonstop
My whole life
I can not
Escape from it
I have tried
Advoidance
Acceptance
Denial
Nothing has worked
I have
Noticed
It waits
When I feel
I am happy
It is gone
Then
It comes back
With a vengeance
Changing
Its face
And
Its strategy
To reenter
Into my life
Pain’s
Message to me
Is
It is not
Going anywhere
This burden
Will be
My baggage
That is not
Fully unpacked
Pouring out
Like
A bottomless pit
The contents
Are scattering
All around me
Boxing me in
So I can not
Move
It just
Wants me
To know
I can not
Run from it
It has me
And
Will not
Let go
NEVER

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Need An Advocate For My Life”

Do I keep
Walking
Or stand still
Until someone
Comes to
Find me
Waiting feels
Like a lifetime
And dying
Is an eternity
Either way
I risk
Being lost
It’s hell
In the middle of
Somewhere
Surrounded
By nothing
Wondering
Aimlessly
With
No direction
Just walking
In circles
Like I’m crazy
Looking
For something
That is rare
And hard to find
A piece
Of happiness
In the form
Of two pills
One states
Lie down
On my back
And die
The other
States
Stand tall
on my feet
And fight
To the death
If I have to
Either fate
By my hands
Are
Bad versus worst
Case scenario
I need
Something
More drastic
Taking all worries
Away
Of picking
The wrong one
So I’m
Giving it over
To a judger
A devil’s advocate
That is
Capable
Of weeding out
The ungrateful
And
The unworthy
With specific
Instructions
To give
My heart
To the one
Ready to die
For me
In order
To live
Forever
Up
In heaven
Beside me
With no
Fear
Deceit
Or
Heartache
To come
Home to

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Value My Safety”

Why is it
That some people
Include me
In games
I don’t want
To play
Too many people
Putting me
In deadly situations
With riddles
That don’t
Make sense
And no
Plausible answers
To guess
I’m hanging
From
Death traps
I can not
Escape
There are no
Safety nets
To catch me
From sudden death

I’m a guareenteed
Loser
In this game
When there
Are no
Rules
To keep me safe
I can not
Understand
Why there are
People
Happy at
Putting me
In danger
Because
They believe
My safety is
Not a value
To them
I am not
Put here
To be
Played with
Or
Entertainment
For people
That are
Unhappy
With their
Life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Limit Is Here”

Keep trying me
I dare you
My heart is
Out of this
Stop testing me
You really
Want me to
Fail drastically
I have no more
Cheeks
To turn
I’m there
Now
I’m tired of
Deceitful
Trifling liars
Being around
Here
I am
No
Saint
By any means
It will be
A cold day
In hell
Before
I die
For anyone’s sins
I’m tired of
People taking
My kindness
For weakness
It was called
Tolerance
And it is
At the limit
You’ve
Done me wrong
You’ve voided
Your
Unconditional
Love status
That bridge
You had
It’s condemned now
And deadly
To travel
I am not
Your mother
A friend
Or your family
Don’t
Call me
I don’t want to
Smell your
Shit fragrance
I will never
Help you
If you’re stranded
I can’t stand you
I’m ready to
Snap back
And finish this
I’ve extended
My hand
I’m done
Being the
Better one
It’s time
For me to be selfish
I’m Saving my
Last fingers
To survive with
I just want
Peace
And to be
Left alone

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Island Of Our Own”

All I ask
Is that you
Promise
Yourself
That you
Will surrender
Your stress
Lock it up
Keeping it
Away from
This happiness
With both
Want to share
The pain you
Had before me
Don’t give
It so
Much control
Just
Direct all
Your senses
And
Concentrate
On us
Let’s stay
In our world
Our own piece
Of heaven
In the center
Of a
Complicated world
No outside
Madness
Will ever
Enter
What
Is outside
Stays outside
Where it can’t
Hurt us
Never
Destroying
What we’ve grown
This kingdom
Is no kingdom
Without this bond
I will always
Be your refuge
And you will be mine
So
Let me
Be that
Barbed wire
Surrounding
Protecting
And
Keeping you
Mentally
And
Emotionally strong
Don’t worry
All trespasses
Will not enter
So relax
And let go
Leaving all
Your worries
Behind you
When you
Come across
This heavenly
Threshold
Where we
Have built
A strong foundation
I can guarantee
All our past
Sweat and tears
Will hold
It up
In any storm
No weathering
Or
Taking shelter
Anywhere else
We are home

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Deeper Than The Physical”

Under the surface
Is a glorious beauty
In the depths
Of select souls
In this world
They bring clarity
To the blind
And the unloved
These souls
Have no hidden
Clause within them
All you have
To do is
Look further
Than your eyes
To see
Without Your
Sight
And presumptions
Leading you
To doubt
What could be magical
And freeing
Use
Whatever
Your heart
Your gut
Or intuition
Doesn’t matter
Just feel
They say
Beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder
It’s true
Can’t you see
Won’t you look
Beyond
The beauty
Of the physical
Outer layer
Somewhat deeper
Than the sea
There is a gem
Precious and rare
Inside of those
You would think
That wouldn’t be
They are full of Hope
And potential
But are consider
Ugly
Because no one
Has looked
Past the broken wing
And side halo
Hanging off their head
Dirty from
Getting
Down and dirty
In the trenches
Going deep
In a world
That don’t take
Kindly to hoping
And individual dreams
Yet they soldier
On to spread love
With smiles
And simple gestures
Through compassion
And their humanity
With no bias
In their heart
Towards color or gender
Their heart
Only beats
To the drum
Of love and
It’s ready to love
Another unconditionally
With only
The utmost purity
There are no conditions
What you must
Do for them
They are genuine
With no intentions
To use
Or hurt
Anybody
They refuse
To do it
Out of
Personal gain
They have
No jealousy
No hate
Within them
They win
When you win
When they help
All people
Succeed
In accomplishing
Their dreams
To living in
Their happily
Ever after

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Tunnel Vision”

I do not
Need
To walk
In anyone
Else’s shoes
I will
Never be
A failure
I’m a winner
In my heart
Of hearts
I came
To my senses
I saw
What I was meant
To be
It’s not
Being with you
That person
Was a stranger
That possessed
My body
And corrupted
My soul
I cried
For days
To cleanse
Myself
When I wiped
My eyes
I was able
To see
The truth
For the
First time
I saw
With new sight
It was a
Vision of beauty
It was me
Smiling bright
I was
Without you
And my
Life was
All right
I promised myself
To never
Allow that image
To fade away
I finally
Had my strength
You made
Me weak
In the past
I could only see
Through
Tunnel vision
I got so far
Off track
I was
On a mission
Trying to prove
You wrong
Forgetting
Myself
Just for that
Short while
It felt like
An eternity
Walking
In your shoes
I was
Doing dumb shit
Mirroring you
Your stank
Attitude
And I allowed
Your anger to
Consume me
I was lost
Inside of you
I had to get out
I broke
The only rule
I had for myself
To always
Be true
Be me
And never
Be a duplicate

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Laid In Front Of You”

Two glasses
On a table
Rotated to
Your point
Of view
It does not
Matter
Everyone else
Sees it as
Wrong
But you
Say it
Ain’t so
Your reasoning
Is warped
You will never
See
The truth
Even if
It was
Presented right
In front
Of you
My conclusion
Is I’m damned
In whatever
I do
I will never
Have the chance
To be
A part of
Your life
I’m forever
At arms length
Doubted
With no
Reason
To back it up
I’m feeling
Some type of way
Because you lied
You put me
In this position
Making me
Feel like
I’m the one
That is wrong
And blind
To the truth
I shouldn’t have
To defend myself
When I’ve
Committed no crime
Against you
You are the one
That let your
Past and enemies
Condemn me
Someone else
Made the decision
To hurt you
That was them
Not me
I’ve been here
Standing steadfast
Beside you
Never faltering
Real and confident
In every step
I made with you
I laid everything
About me
Out on the table
You should
Know me
My heart
My story
And my character
Nothing has
Ever changed
I’ve been the same
Person
I hate how
You say
You want
Someone real
But keep
Doing stupid
Things to offend me
Stop taking it
Out on me
I’ve never
Turned my back
Once on you
I was the one
That told you
You was family
And
Embraced you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Inexcusable Behaviour”

I’ve recorded
And analyzed
Everything
Mentally
Never
Forgetting
The lies
That left
Your mouth
So easily
I won’t
Forget
That you lied
Straight to
My face
I remembered it
As if it
Was yesterday
So vividly
I can still
Taste
The hate
That spued from
Your mouth
You lacked
Self-respect
And all dignity
Your
Actions
Spoke
With fluidity
While slug
And sewage
Poured
Slowly
From all your
Crevices
Stinking up
The air
There was
No way
To breath
Around your
Poisonous
Toxicity
The habits
You’ve developed
From your past
Is hindering you
And
You’ve formed a
Very distinctive
Pelicular feature
That shields you
You are unable
To respect
Those good
To you
But today
My truth
Will be
Smacking you
I was born
With the capability
Of seeing
Truth
And
Bull shit
Around me
I treat
Your words as
Little Particles
Floating
In the air
About to plague
My environment
With a
Virus
With no cure
For me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Not In Line For You”

You said
You would
Need me
Want me
And
Love me
And only me
For life
But it wasn’t
The truth
Your sidechick
I guess
Had enough
Of you
Telling her
You would
Leave me
Divorce me
And make
Her your
New wife
You had
No intentions
In leaving
Her
Nor I
And that became
Your biggest mistake
You put
Your trust
In a scorned
Woman
With secrets
You kept
From me
And she got
Tired of
Your many excuses
She did
What she felt
Would make
Her happy
With one click
Destroying us
Sending
All the
Proof of
Your explicit
Relationship
Letters
Videos
Chats
In black
White
And color
Your cheating
Has costed
Us everything
It was
An ultimate kill
Killing us
Quickly

I will not
Be the other woman
Waiting in line
For you
I gave you
All of me
You threw
It away
For a romp in
The hay
With someone
Otherthan me
Imploding
Everything
That mattered
Between us
There is
No way
To fixing
This mess
You created
Call her up
I know
She’s waiting for you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Enemy Of My Enemy”

You live
With them
Everyday
Going to
Family events
Birthdays
Funerals
And
Holidays
You shouldn’t
Have to
Be afraid
Of what
They will
Do behind
Your back
But you are
You can’t
Trust them
As far as
You can throw
Them
It’s that
Heartbreaking
Saying
Who needs
Enemies
When you have
Family
No stranger can
Do worst
Than them
Than people
Closer to you
They know
You better
Than anyone
They are family
Your secrets
Are their ammunition
And they use
Them
Like bullets
Hitting you
In rapid
Fire sessions
Center mass
Shredding your heart
Into pieces
Guaranteeing no
Chance of rescuitation
All that’s
Needed to
Be done
Is to
Pronounce you
DOA
At the scene

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Karma Will Get You”

I feel
Every time
I’m around you
I’m dry drowning
In front of you
I can not depend
On you
To save me
If I do
I should
Give up now
Lay down
And let mother nature
End my pain
And
Devour me
It’s just
The realization
I’ve come to
I’ve realized you
Will never
Attempt to come
To my rescue
You’re a liar
Manipulator
A con artist
You lie
About everything
Telling everyone
The sky is gray
When everyone
Sees it’s blue
You have never
Told the truth
To save one life
Including yours
That’s why
You are dead inside
God forbid
If you ever
Said to anyone
I put it on my
Mother
Father
Brother
Sister
Daughter
Son
Life
Everyone would
Fall dead then
No one will
Survive your curse
On them
You would like it
Wouldn’t you
You’re delusional
If you believe
You’ve fooled
The world
Your obsession
With yourself
Is clear as
A sunny day
In June
You want what
You want
At any cost
Not caring
Who gets hurt
In the process
You have
No heart
To give
And
Compassion
Is a curse word
If anyone
Ask for it
From you
You are evil
You get kicks
And thrills
Out of
Tormenting
People
God
Does not like ugly
You will get yours
I don’t have
To do nothing
To you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Leave The Drama On TV”

I try
To keep
My life
Simple
And
Easy
To the best
Of my ability
By keeping
The most important
People close
And near to me
That love me
Dearly
I do not care
For liars
Thieves
And
Drama queens
To surround me
I have that on
Cable TV
I can watch
It any time
I feel the need
For a drama series

Granted
No one
Owes me
Anything
Only thing
I ask for
Is peace
And respect
And I will
Come easy
With an open
Mind
And clean ears
To hear
You speak
Just have something
To say to me
I will not wait
For a open mouth
With a voice
That is silent
I don’t need
Your deafening
Silence
Inside of me
My gift
I gave
I showed up
To something
Ill-prepared
And slapped
Together with
Crazy glue
You threw
That opportunity
In the garbage
So easily
All you had
To do
Is be Real
Lead with honesty
Speak your truth
Then
Give your love freely
It would have
Been
A start
To a new beginning

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Waiting On Destiny”

This feeling
I’m feeling
Is foreign
To me
I do not
Feel
Like
Me
It’s a stranger
With my face
In front of me
Staring through the
Mirror
Right
At me
I am
A million miles
Away from
Where I want
To be
In my dreams
In my reality
I’m
No where
But in space
Floating about
Aimlessly
My life is
Not
A Happy one
Not
A Sad one
Either
I’m
Just part
Of
An existence
Not yet
Able to
Reach my
Full potential
And being who
I need to be
My hand is raised
Like
I’m in class
Waiting on
The teacher
To count me
I’m one of those
People
Waiting on
Destiny
I’m in line
For greatness
And I’m not moving
Until I see
The path
I should take
To get me there
The almighty has
Blessed and engrained
Patience inside
Of me
So I will wait
On him
And only him
To guide me
I know it
Will be marvelous
A phenomenon
That all will
Want to see
I will be
His masterpiece
Being what
I should be
And
Not what I want
To be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Fountain Of Youth”

I gave
My love
Freely
Being
Deaf
Blind
And
Stupid
All together
Misguided in the game
Of love
Giving too much
Too soon
Being all in
On love
Giving
One hundred percent
Before I knew
You better
You
Kept your distance
But reeled me in
While still remaining
To be a stranger
Refusing to give
Your entire heart
Or even a piece
Of it
Yet I still
Did not
See it as
A game
You were playing
I should have
Known better
I gave
My youth
To you
And you did not
Deserve it
You was
A taker
And not a giver
You loved
Bathing
In my tears
On a daily
Not caring
About your actions
You thrived on
Making me weaker
As you grew strong
While laughing
At my
Crippling demeanor
Now when
I looked
In the mirror
I see
Something that’s
Not me
A Weak
Broken
Woman
I had to finally
Face myself
The truth was
You was never
My hero
Just
Low level zero
That played me
I wish
I had noticed
It sooner
I was
Hell bent
Being in loving
With someone
I did not
Want to see
Anything clearer
I was denial
I have to
Stop searching
For love
In all the wrong places
Then blaming others
On my bad decisions
I stayed
Too long
In a situation
Where I was
Slowly dying
And recharging
Someone else’s
Power

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Only Truth Be Told”

With me
Or against me
Take heed
To my warning
A lie is
A deal breaker
In any type
Of relationship
With me
It is not
Me
You are saving
With your lies
But yourself
Be truthful
To avoid a decision
That is mine
To make
I am not afraid to
Live without you
In my life
I will have
No regrets
Do not
Come to me
Without
Your truth
Come quickly
With your answers
When I ask questions
That matter to me
Say it
Without thinking
Too much
To save face
Your lies
Will never
Give me comfort
So do not
Make it
Your only excuse
To avoid
The disappointment
Upon my face
There is a greater
Price to pay
For every lie
You kill
What was ever good
Between us
And replacing it
With empty space
Dividing us
So much
We will never
Be able to
Find our way back
To each other’s
Embrace
You can not have
It both ways
Either you
Live alone
In a house
Full of lies
Or
With me
In Truth
It’s only one world
I can live in
And I know
You know
Which place
Do not put it
On me
When you let
Your cowardness
Help
Lead you into
Pushing my hand
And choosing
To leave
After I find out
What you
Could not
Say
To my face

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cupid’s Plan”

I could not evade
And escape
Cupid’s arrows
Forever
I gave up
And allowed it to
Pierce me right
Through my heart
Creating a wonderful havoc
That uprooted my world
Today
Love and insanity
Took over me
Making me
Go against
All my rules
My common sense
Went out the window
I was caught
In a forceful attraction
Causing me to
Spin out of control
I’m in love
And in lust
With the one
And only
Person in this world
That is
My soulmate
My best friend
My confidant
Who knows me well
I was yours
I could not
Resist
I fell fast
And got entangled
Into your passionate gaze
Looking steadily
And intently
I felt
Confined and cornered
All my life
Until
My mind
Body
And Soul
Connected
On all levels
With yours
We became One
It was an
Overwhelming
Exhilarating
Joy
It’s like a dream
Come true
You
Wanting me
Needing me
And
Embracing our love
As we
Come together
Our clothes
Dropping to the floor
One by one
Teasing our loins
Anticipating
The feeling when
Will we feel
The passion
That is building up
Beneath these clothes
I’m begging
Please
Please
Kiss me
Caress me
And pentratrate
My walls
Fill me
With the utmost estascy
That is
Beyond
This realm
Of this
Destined love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Just Trust Me”

You may think
That you are
Getting nowhere
But you’re somewhere
Far from lost hope
You’re closer to me
By one breath
As I’m
Pulling you
To safety
When you’re
Weak and
Out of breath
Just
Trust me
To be your refuge
Your safe place
Your haven
No judgement here
Just your future
Full of happiness
And peace
A home to go to
To hide
From the high pursuit
Of demons
And Cerberus
Looking to
Hunt you down
Play with you
And capture your soul
For all eternity
Give me a chance
To warm your heart
Tell me those secrets
That you hide from
Every soul
That you buried
So deep within
And made you so cold
Let me make your
Dreams a reality
And vanquish
Your nightmares
Forever
So you can sleep
Beside me
In this fortress
Of positivity
It’s a piece
Of heaven’s grace
Full of
Vibrant colors
No more
Black and white

Yellowbonewonda

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“Going To Faraway Places”

I have
No worries
The heavenly father
Will bless
And replenish
What I’m needing
To keep on my journey
Those takers
Will continue
Even after I’m gone
On their destructive path
They are set on
Killing all beauty
Around them
I promise myself
I will be long gone
And out of reach
Far from that obliteration
That is them
I’ve learned from my past
I was too focused
On everyone
Except me
My energy
My love
Giving
All of me
Helping others
Neglecting myself
I’m not complaining
I gave it freely
But it was so draining
I finally had to recognize
That everyone
Does not
Deserve me
Who I am
As a person
What I offer
To the equation
For a long time
I’ve been
Malnourished
And
Dehydrated
Mentally
Physically
And
Emotionally
Not feeding myself
With nutritional substance
To substantial satisfy
Or fill me
I had no urge
Or visible belly bulge
That forced me
To unbutton
My pants
Before sitting
After eating
Some people are
Just takers
Taking all the good
And leaving
Footprints behind
Up and down your back
But whatever treasure
They think
They stole from me
Will
Diminish quickly
What they have
It’s too
Good and powerful
It will vanish
As they raise it to
Their mouth
Before consumption
Leaving them hungry
And Searching
To impoverish from
The next person
They see

-Yellowbonewonda

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