“Protecting My People”

I take on the job
Free of charge
As a lioness
Being mean
Instinctive
Territorial
And protective
Watching over
Hidden diamonds
Covered
In the blackness
Inside the deepest
Darkest cave
Just sparkling
Bright and
Full of potential
Some people
Just need
To be
Protected
In some moments
I stand up
And defend
The innocence
That lives
Within
People
I call
Them
Pure hearts
And yes
I am their keeper
Sheltering them
From those
That are
Evil
Walking among
Normal people
I will pledge
To do my best
To not allow
Their extinction
They are amazing
Wonderful
Beautiful
Human beings
People take
Advance of them
Because they can
Stealing their
Pureness
Stunting their
Flawless
Happy
Joyful
Character
By
Abusing
Neglecting
Tossing them
Around
And throwing
Them in the garbage
I want to
Shake them
To get some
Sense in them
To stop being
Their predators
Entertainment
I want to
Help them
Get their life together
And
Start acknowledging
A worth
Of
Being someone
That has a future
Not being doormat
Walked on
Day and night
Taken advantage of
Because of their
Good nature

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Patiently Waiting”

I can not pretend
To like you
Love you
Understand you
Or care for
Your well-being
I don’t
Do fakeness
My face
Mirrors my emotions
And my body
Reacts
To bull$hit
A built
In lie detector
Ready to go haywire
So
Please keep your distance
I’m afraid your propinquity
It may lead me
Into temptation
To act crazy
I’m everready
To put
My hands on you
Releasing all
My pinned up anger
Only for you
What you do
How you breath
Being in proximity of me
Makes me suspicious
I’m locked and loaded
My sonar is always
Tracking
Waiting on your
Boldness
To approach me
I will choose my battles wisely
But you come into my space
We going to war
All ammunition
Will be spent
If you know
What’s good for you
Keep on your side
And I’ll stay on mine
We will live
A full healthy life
Of being cooperative
Where we can coexist

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Clear Thought Process”

Rain is
The forgotten
Symphony
Music instruments
Made in nature
The best kept secret
To those
Able to hear it
It’s a gift
To experience it
In its glory
As it pitter-pats
Against all things
In nature
I personally melt
Into it’s musicality
It is comforting
Relaxing
And Refreshing
As I sway
Back and forth
No more restlessness
I fall asleep
Dreaming in the Matrix
I hear the rain
It changes me
It’s hypnotic
And calming
Putting a pause
To my scattered
Thought process
It shuts me down
Then reboots me
After an extensive
Maintenance check
Cooling
My mainframe
So
I don’t crash
Avoiding
A blackout
Extending across nations
So beware
Hackers
Trolling for priceless data
It’s protected
By my white hats
Fortifying it
So no one
You will
Erase
My memories
My character
Or
Exploit
My temperament
Changing me
Into the beast
No one wants
To meet

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Food For Thought”

Why do you rush
Here and there
Take your time
Enjoy the scenery
You only have
One life to live
Stop chasing behind
Faces on paper
There are other
Things in life
That are important
Stop neglecting
Your happiness
And the simple things in life
Like family and friends
They are the ones that
Love you unconditionally
They provide you
The freedom to be who
You want to be
Without being caught
In censorship
Satisfy those
Cravings before
It starts crying like a baby
Refusing to be ignored
Making you
Tired
Exhausted
And incoherent
Causing you to fall
Into a trap
Of grabbing
Everything
That captivates you
Then
It’s too late
You’re overeating
And overburdened
Your eyes are big
Magnifying your hunger
Your stomach is suffering
To the point of
Exploding
Take my advice
Eat slowly
Chew each morsel
Taste your food
As if it was
The first time
Savour it
Record the data
Imprint it permanently
On your DNA
Making it apart of you
Sense there is
More
To your life
Other than despondency

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Going To Faraway Places”

I have
No worries
The heavenly father
Will bless
And replenish
What I’m needing
To keep on my journey
Those takers
Will continue
Even after I’m gone
On their destructive path
They are set on
Killing all beauty
Around them
I promise myself
I will be long gone
And out of reach
Far from that obliteration
That is them
I’ve learned from my past
I was too focused
On everyone
Except me
My energy
My love
Giving
All of me
Helping others
Neglecting myself
I’m not complaining
I gave it freely
But it was so draining
I finally had to recognize
That everyone
Does not
Deserve me
Who I am
As a person
What I offer
To the equation
For a long time
I’ve been
Malnourished
And
Dehydrated
Mentally
Physically
And
Emotionally
Not feeding myself
With nutritional substance
To substantial satisfy
Or fill me
I had no urge
Or visible belly bulge
That forced me
To unbutton
My pants
Before sitting
After eating
Some people are
Just takers
Taking all the good
And leaving
Footprints behind
Up and down your back
But whatever treasure
They think
They stole from me
Will
Diminish quickly
What they have
It’s too
Good and powerful
It will vanish
As they raise it to
Their mouth
Before consumption
Leaving them hungry
And Searching
To impoverish from
The next person
They see

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Confused By You”

How do you decipher
A mathematical equation
That was thought
To have been solved
Twenty years ago
The teacher approved
The answer
Saying you was correct
Then out of nowhere
You get
An outdated letter
Saying you failed
After they recalculated
All of the
So called data
I thought
Those years
Were behind me
Dead and Buried
Six feet deep
And a extra few feet
Cause I jumped in the grave
And stomped it
It’s restless spirits
A rising
Ghosts are haunting
Chanting in
Repeative whispers
Saying strange things
Like
I love you
I’ve missed you
And want to see you
It’s a miracle
Their eyes have opened
They’ve gained their sight
They finally noticed
I wasn’t there beside them
All this time
I spent a lifetime
Of detachment
Hiding in plain sight
Now I am no longer invisible
I’m so hesitant
To find out the answer
Do you
Want
My forgiveness
My tears
The broken pieces of my heart
To mend them
I’m not sure
I will be able to hand
Them all over
So careless
What is your
Ulterior motive
There’s a reason
For this call
You’re not telling me
The whole truth
Let’s count to three
Rip off
This bandaid quickly
Cut to the chase
Throwing it all
At once
The kitchen sink included
Because that day
I stood before you
Pleading my case
Trying so hard
Overexurting myself
Putting all my effort
In explaining
How priceless
And irreplaceable
I am
I still can not comprehend
How
I had to sale
Myself
As if I was brand new car
I was not a thing
I was a person
With feelings
You just wasn’t
Interested then
So how come
Now
I’m important

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Hey Mister”

Hey Mister
Excuse me
I have a story
To run by you
Let’s take a ride
On memory lane
For a while
To see if you remember
That girl
Back in the day
That had your
Tail a waging
Well that firecracker
She’s my mother
Stop hating on her
She does not deserve it
She did what
You couldn’t
And was a parent
She did her job
And then some
Taking care
Of her responsibility
I heard the rumors
From those wicked
Little birdies
How you denied me
Because of my color
Even Stevie Wonder
Could see
I looked just like you
A splitting image
And very good balance
Of you and my mother
Thankful back in those days
We only needed
Grandma
The DNA investigator
She
Took one look at me
And said
Stop bothering her
I was your child
And Stop your denial
Yet that wasn’t what
Crushed my image of you
I had no anger
I was very observant
I continued
To give our relationship
A chance
And kept visiting
To get to know you
But the only thing
I remember
You never getting close to me
Staying in the shadows
Watching me
Never interacting with me
That hollowed feeling
Was disturbing and grew
Inside me

You had no light
Shining to guide me
I felt
So lost
Being near you
So as distance grew
I went with it
Letting go of
False dreams
Of
Being a daddy’s little girl
Even in the same room
We were on different planets
You on yours
Me on mine
With no way
Between them
I didn’t pretend
Or glamourize you
I saw reality
You was my birth father
And wasn’t daddy material
We were linked
By blood
And nothing else
Those dreams of
A little girl
Wanting a daddy
Is long gone
And almost forgotten
You just missed something
That was glorious
The good
The bad
And the ugly
Of being there
Celebrating with me
My accomplishment
Protecting me
From bad relationships
And loving me
Unconditional
Who stands now
In front of you
Is someone
That is a
Good person
Beautiful
Intelligent
Good heart
Be happy
I’m still here
Alive and kicking
Hard as ever
I’m just Numb
To childish fantasies
I’m a grown woman
I don’t hate you
You’re a stranger
And if you want to know me
Pick up your phone
And call me
My number has been same
For decades

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Too Many Followers”

You can not do
Better than
The best
He already did it
In the beginning
What society
Has done
Is disgraceful
Following
Low self-esteem
Individuals
Making comments
On other people’s
Features
Hair
And
Body proportions
Saying they
Need plastic surgery
Or
Chemicals
In order to be accepted
It’s a slap
In his face
Like you are telling him
All his creations
Were colossal mistakes
Stop picking apart
Saying
Your
Nose is too big or too small
Forehead too prominent or too flat
Eyes too close or too far apart
Color too dark or too light
Or
The body is just
Wrong all together
Then you are just
Creating a Frankinstein mess
He made
In his image
Only originals
And broke the mold
After making
Each one of them
To his perfection
If he wanted
Clones
He would not have
Made everyone
Look
Talk
Walk
Different
And beautiful
People
You are
What you should be
Stop
Looking only at
The physical
You are
Extraordinary
Gorgeous
And just enough
To be his children
What makes you special
Should not be what
You hate
Your imperfections
Are not imperfections
You are perfect
Being different
It can not be solved
By reconfiguring
Adding and subtracting
Body parts
Accept the fact
To fit in
Is a tragedy
Stop following
The herd
Being led
To the slaughter
Go against what
Other
People think
Love
Yourself
And your differences

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Don’t Make Your Issues Mine”

He has a lot of growing
Up to do
He knows what
He needs to do
To get back into
My good graces
That’s if he does not
Want to lose
His future
The woman
He wants to call
Wifey
And
The future mother
Of his unborn children
There is no comparison
Between
You and I
The problem
With hoes
And hoodrats
You try
Too hard
Playing on the fence
It’s more
To what’s
Between your legs
That will keep him
You have
To have
Intelligence
And beauty within
The type of woman
I am
And what I do
To keep any man
Is my secret
You think I am not
Aware of my surroundings
I see you thirsty
Hoes
You are irrelevant
To even try to compare
His lust for you
And his love for me
We are not
In the same area code
He wasn’t mine
When you met him
He was free
To do as he pleased
You and he
Did what
You did together
That’s on you
He did
What dogs do
While off their leashes
Running around
The neighborhood
Humping every
8itch in heat
It’s funny
You caught
Feelings
Stop using me
As the excuse
On why you
Can’t keep him
The best kept secret
Is that
When he’s with you
No matter the distance
He’s craving me
Dreaming of me
Wanting me
All day and night
I laugh
When you say
What’s between
His legs is magic
Yet that magic
Didn’t keep me
I got something
More in value
The key to his heart
You have fun
Doing what you do
I’m not scared to lose him
You can’t take
What’s not yours
In the first place
If I really
Wanted him
I will call him
But in our circumstance
He needs to grow up
And be the man
A leader
So until then
He will wish for
The woman
That is me
That can only fill his desires

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Mate”

I want my match
My mate
That I will have
Forever
Someone that wants
What I want
Same goals
In life
Who is
On the same
Level
Someone that will
Complete me
And protect me
Being the last piece
Of my puzzle
When we are pinned against
The wall
My job is
To play timid
Protect his neck
And sneak attack
Any predator
If you want
What is ours
It will not be easy
To take
Our love
It’s a fight
To the death
What we built
Together
Is our paradise
No one else
Can have it
We will be devious
To defend
Falling into
Whatever position
Needed
To keep
Anyone who challenges us
Off balance
Our love
Our bond
Our life together
Is our priority
We will die
To protect each other
We are in this together
No one can break apart
The invincible
And unstoppable duo
This world
Will know
We are forever
And
We take things literal

Those whom God
Hath joined together
Let no man put asunder

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Gone Home”

By: Yellowbonewonda

There are some
People on this Earth
That exist
I think
They are heaven
Sent
Placed on Earth
To be tested
For whatever time frame
Of their pureness
Before they are taken
Into God’s grace
These are the Gone to Soon
Innocents of the world
Babies
Toddlers
Teens
Elders
That were
Not blinded
By the Devil’s
Charm and glamour
They saw the truth
And followed the path
They were sent on
To earn their wings
This test is like the
Hunger games
But no one is being killed
To win
A contagion of the deadly sins
Are set free
And the ones that are immune
From gluttony
Lust
Greed
Pride
Sorrow
Despair
Despondency
Wrath
Vainity
And Sloth
Are the ones chosen
For immediate release
You will never
See it in their eyes
Or in their demeanour
They have been through
Hell but they
Have never shown it
Walking through
Live minefields on a daily
Stepping with confidence
Knowing that wherever
They place their foot
Nothing will harm them
Because
There are angels
Guiding and protecting them
Shielding them from the blast
When others
Traveling along side
Of them
Are getting blown up
By the minute
These beautiful people
Are the anoitted
They are
Withstanding every
Trail and tribulation
Thrown at them
If you don’t know them
They are
The ones standing
Head high
Smiling from ear to ear
Like nothing has ever touched them
They are a testament
Of their faith
They believed
In a higher power
That all is well
Even when it
Doesn’t seem
Like it
They were told
In their dreams
Everything will be better
And to trust
Even when
No money is coming
Everything will be
Provided for
Just be happy
A roof is over their head
Clothes on their backs
And they have a full belly
Every thing else
That trickles through
Is icing on the cake
So I tell you
Stressing on things
Out of your power
Is something not worth it
Because tomorrow
Is not promised
And every minute
Should be
Treated as a blessing
Keep smiling
Through adversity
And follow that lighted path
To the old kingdom

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“Where Are You Going”

When it comes
To Mother Nature’s
Wrath
She has no plan
She doesn’t care
About your circumstances
Floods
Earthquakes
Brush Fires
Snow storms
Droughts
Are thrown at us
She is blind
Like Lady Justice
We can’t do anything
But run and hide
Hoping she’s not mean
Or spiteful enough
To keep chasing
After us
When she fights
Nothing is fair
She throws
Houses
Buildings
Cars
Drowns
Anyone and everyone
Devastating nations
She is an equal opportunist
That speaks a language
Everyone understands
Globally
Her wrath
Spreads
All over
She doesn’t care
About anything
She has two questions
To ask
All of humanity
Live or die
And whatever your
Personal preference
On who you love
Political stance
And who you hate
Is irrelevant
Your fighting
Is not her problem
That’s your cross to bare
If you are
Rich or poor
Black or white
Democrat or Republican
Gay or Straight
Her mission is to
Destroy or let live
She is judge and jury
Of the physical land
That we live on
She doesn’t care about
Where your soul
Goes
Heaven or Hell
That is up to
A much greater power
Until then
She will show her truth
Through her actions
She doesn’t lie
Or make promises
To spare anyone
Over another
She accepts no bribes
Money can’t buy
Your life
No one
Is safe
Your
Last battle
With good and evil
Is based on your actions
Before her rampage
Of this Earth
So pray to your maker
And be absolved of your sins
Get to high ground
Stay out of her path
And hope she doesn’t
Change directions
Coming to your hiding place
Wiping out
Your existance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Recurring Circles”

Death toll
Is still rising
Increasing in numbers
Off the charts
Accumulating
Day by day
It’s a never-ending process
That will not
End
Until the last body on earth
No longer exist
From the beginning of time
We live
We die
Shed tears
Then hold on for dear life
To memories
Of those gone too soon
These memories
For a while are vivid
It’s almost
As if they are standing
In front of you
And you are remembering
Who they were
Their scent
Of their hair
Body
Neck
A smell
That once engulfed you
Time and time again
Returning like a tidalwave
It’s an overwhelming
Love through
The best
Long hug
That no one else
Could give
But them
This comforting feeling
Overtakes you
Giving you a renewed strength
This wonderful person
Was
The complete package
A smile
That lite up the room
A laugh
That sounded like sweet music
A love
In the purest form
Being around them
Gave a sense of belonging
But we get too busy
These days
And memories
Start to fade
A empty
Feeling
That can not be filled
All you want
Is to be
Whole again
Back in their embrace
Wanting them to
Hug you
Again
So hard
You can not breath
Yet
You
Don’t care
To be no where else
That’s a love
The breaks you
And completes
That
Can never be
Replaced

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Wasting Your Time”

”
You have an
Invisible target
On your back
Without knowing
The answer to why
Some people
Are hateful
Hurtful
And all about theirself
Is simple
It’s something they
Didn’t get
As a child
A hug
A kiss
Or a good old spanking
But now
That they’ve
Become an adult
They are acting out
Or is it just possible
They were
Born that way
Cruel
Heartless
And an @$$
Who knows
I’m not diagnosing
Whatever they are searching for
Be careful
They see what
They need
Inside of you
They are
In their
Delusion
Wanting to see
Someone else wading
In the same crap
Called their life
It’s funny
They actually believe
Their life
Is better
Yet they don’t know
You from Adam or Eve
So stop stressing yourself
In asking
Why and how come
It’s not personal
You got caught
In their hunting scope
And became tonight’s dinner
Wrong place
Wrong time
You are their pawn
In
A Game
Called misery loves company
And it feel like
A Chainsaw massacre
They don’t care
To see no one else’s
Pain
It’s a formed habit
They’ve developed
Self absorbed bastards
Believing
They deserve
What’s not theirs
And your an obstacle
To defeat
Call it what it is
Stop looking for
Answers
It is too
Exhausting
Choose your
Sanity
Don’t be a victim
Be a survivor
You will never understand
How some people are
Just ignore them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“No Longer Kids

We have grown
From little kids
To now adults
It was a long
Life
We had together
From
Eating things
Like
Paste
And
Chalk
We would share secrets
To no one
Everything was
Just between us
The worst thing
That could have happen
Did happen
But we got through it
After anger
Took over us
We fought
It was horrible
And we cried
Like babies
I am still
Remembering how
Awful and
Miserable
When were apart
We would set records
To apologize
And
Hug it out
Then
Laugh about
How silly
We were
Promising never to fight
To a point
It separated us
For more than a day
Nothing is worth
That heartache
I’m so thankful
For our blessing
To have witnessed
The good
The bad
And ugly
Side of one other
We are stronger
Than ever
We are stuck
Like glue
To one another
You cry
I cry
You laugh
I laugh
We are so silly
It’s a miracle
From the day
We first met
We were instant friends
Kindergarten
Was the start of this
Budding friendship
I remember the day
You were
Clean cut
Khaki shorts
And blue polo button up
I was
In pig tails
And in my favorite sundress
It was destiny
That took over
Making us
Buddies forever
Thick as thieves
We were
Inseparable
Laughing at each others
Corny jokes
We’ve grown so much
We developed
To something better
You’re
My best friend
And soulmate
Our lives intertwined
There is no
Me without you
I can’t imagine
Being separated
I’ve dared you
You’ve dared me
To be together
Forever
We’ve never been scared
Of any challenge
So let’s do this
I stand
In front of you
Facing
Face to face
Holding each other’s
Hands
At this alter
Committing our
Lives together
Til death part us

-Yellowbonewonda

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“On A Mission”

My heartbeat
Is unsteady
My rhythm
Is off
I can’t dance
To the beat
It feels awkward
My mission is clear
To follow the source
Ending my discomfort
I’m ready
For action
A ride or die chick
In savage mode
Ready to
Just do it
Moving every mountain
In my way
There will be no mercy
My veins are pumping
With the deadliest of venom
There will be
No more waiting
Get out of my way
Slow people
Get to the right
The left is for speeding
I don’t have time
To be caught
In your oblivion
I can not
Sit calmly
Enduring this torture
I’m
Fidgety and anxious
Feeling
Stuck in
Park
I’m Ready
Just release me
Let my alter ego
Take over
Getting behind the wheel
Driving like
The car was stolen
If I don’t win
I die
My eyes are focus
I’m seeing in 3D
My foot is
Pushing hard
On the gas

I’m tasting my victory
Seeing corks popping
And drinking a six litre
Of Dom Pérignon Rose Gold
I am going to be
Your champion
And rescuer
I’m coming
On the mark
Get set
Go
The flag
Has dropped
I’m
Zero to Three hundred
In 13.61 seconds
I’m determined
To do
The impossible
To be your Earth bound
Savior

-Yellowbonewonda

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“It’s Your Life”

Never satisfied
Your desires
Are unfulfilled
Never reaching
Climax
All you’re doing is
Covering up imperfections
Not allowing yourself
To repair a broken
Unsatisfied self
Look for paradise
Within yourself
Before you seek
Money and power
Because if you are broken
You are only looking
To have an extension
To something
That is poisonous
Life taking
And a suicide mission
To someone not prepared
Searching for the wrong thing
For their life
At that moment
It will cause
Irreparable damage
You lose
Pieces of yourself
On the battlefield
That is called
Your life
When you are fighting
Without a purpose
Other than stacking
Paper
To get it
At any cost
By nuking
All
Living things
Surrounding you
Then
Climbing over their dead bodies
Like it was nothing
Stepping on shoulders
And heads
Fighting constantly
Making mortal enemies
Out of friends
Family
And your lover
The fighting
From sun up
To sundown
With no sleep
Is what nightmares
Are made of
Haunting you
During the day
And at night
Causing sleepless night
It’s your conscious
On high alert
Replaying your decisions
To get you back
On course
To what you’re suppose
To be
Instead of a ruthless stooge
You’re fighting day to day
For something
Not even yours
It’s
An object
And if you were
Ever stranded
You would wipe
Your @$$ with it
If you really needed it
Stop giving
This world
More cutthroats
With a lost soul
Only in search
Of the dollar bill

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Absentee Family”

I wasn’t loved
By my family
They were abusive
After awhile
It is all excuses
To not
Be accountable
For yourself
Today
At this minute
The guilt game
Only effects
Those that feel emotions
You need to realize
You are not
Your past transgressions
Your situation
Although tragic
Must be put to rest
No one has
A hold on you
As much as you do
Memories
Memorized
Engrained into your brain
Yet the keys to your chains
Are in your hands
Your
Mother
Father
Siblings
Or extended family
If they are
In the same mindset
They won’t help you
Unshackle yourself
Release that innocent child
That was you
From all those past fears
Tears and sadness
You’ve grown to be somebody
And you fought
With determination
Not to be the people
That cause this tragedy
One day came
And it was kismet
You crossed my path
I was able to
Give what you needed
Pure energy
That filled
What was almost
An empty vessel
Just
Start your healing
It’s now up to you
To nourish it
Empathy
And
Compassion
Are emotions
You will be feeling
Coming
In waves
Surging
On a daily
Today
Tomorrow
And
The tomorrow’s thereafter
Just be open
To receiving it
It’s not complex
Take care of you
Give thanks
That you made it through
You are
Where you should be
Standing before
Your future
And potential
Happiness
Don’t let a biological disaster
Called your DNA
Keep a hold of
Who you want to be
Where you want to be
And how you are continuing
To get there
Your protectors
Came in all forms
Guiding you
Helping you to function
Until this moment
Where you need to
Forgive them
For the sake of you
So you can
Stop concentrating
On a scared child
Afraid of the boggie monster
It’s time to
Relax into your new found spirit
Relate to your present happy self
Release all of the negativity
Of once being defeated
That person
That taught you
In your past
To hate
Was evil and vindictive
And the new person
Teaching you presently
To love
Is compassionate and loving
Move on
And live your life
In spite of
The ones that
Refused to support
Love and cherish you
They are irrelevant

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Sand Storms”

Without getting
Swept away
And torn apart
Everything
Is so unpredictable
I’m looking on
To new possibilities
Waiting
On my
Brand new energy
To change
My life
For the better
I want to be
Pushed to the brink
Of losing all sanity
It’s a perfect storm
Inside of me
Chaos and order
Simultaneously
These words
Come to me
Forming without notice
Popping up
Like sand tornadoes
In the desert
Out of nowhere
Spinning rapidly
Only to die down
To pop up again
To engulf my body
I’m falling
And
It catches me
Pulling me
Into its chest
Where I can listen
To its heart beating
While protecting me
And allowing me
To witness
As it
Destroys the old
Part of me
Everything is
In slow motion
I’m watching the chaos
While calm inside
Seeing all my words
Come to my grasp
I am grabbing
And arranging
Building it
Into a masterpiece
Being coherent
And providing
Perfect sense
While showing my
Vulnerability
I am open
And preparing
And
Transforming
My creations
Into melodies
Hoping all will
Listen
Hearing all the lyrics
I want to
Open closed minds
And soften
Hardened hearts
Giving my all
In every poem
So the impossible
Will be possible

-Yellowbonewonda

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“First Sight Delight”

He thought of me
As a mystic
Almost as if
I was a paranormal
A clairvoyance
Of some type
A magical creature
That came from a made
Up story
Getting inside of him
His
Mind
Body
And
Soul
I made little effort
In infiltrating him
I did it with no warning
It was beyond
The normalcy
Of everyday patterns
His life was going
And the day we met
He was taking
His life back
From every
Demanding body
Job
Family
Friends
He wanted more
And he put
A stop to it
Not missing
Another day
Of nature’s beauty
He began
Carrying his head up
High
Eyes scanning
His surroundings
It was something
Pulling him
Directing him
To the here and now
And when our eyes met
It was glorious
It was at first sight
I had already integrated
Inside of him
Causing a sensory overload
A new vibranance of life
Sparked
He was filled
With true love’s
Healing
His loneliness
And empty heart
Was no more
It was no denying it
The magnetic charge
That was building
With such strength
A connection that
Spiked
With an overwhelming
Love and devotion
So unimaginable
It consumed all the air
And buried our bodies

Under a ton
Of bricks
Dumped all at once
On top of us
It was so
Confining
Yet Surprisingly
Comforting
And calming
This story I tell
Although you are reading
These words
It’s still unexplainable
Common words
Give it
No justice
Describing
A love
So fullfuling
It’s
Everlasting
And powerful
Not diluted
In its purest form
That is bigger than
The both of us
Unstoppable
Invincible
And growing stronger
And stronger

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Before You Judge Be Open”

Stop living in
Your comfortable
Blacked out bubble
Form an attachment
Other than society’s
Normal
To hate one person
Over the other
Race
Gender
Or over
Someone’s else’s drama
A friend
A family member
Hating to hate
Someone’s presence
Making you develop
Those traits
Of ignorance
And prejudice
Without knowing
About those
“Others”
That are breathing
The same air
As you do
Is almost a crime
Against humanity
To miss those
Blessings
Because of your unfamiliarity
Causes a mass hysteria
That is contiguous
With no medicine
Because someone is different
This is
When it’s important
To open
Your eyes
And remove those blinders
To see pass
Someone’s physical features
To ask
Who they are
Stop passing judgement
Don’t keep listening
To break room gossip
Everyone has a unique story
Stop pushing your beliefs
On those that don’t want them
Believing that people
Should feel
Like you feel
In every situation
Is ludicrous
Voice your thoughts
Then
Back off
And watch what develops
A place of civility
And good feeling
Of people being
Human
And respectful
Without judgement
Let God
Do his job
And make
Your effort
To
Treat everyone
As individuals
With a clean slate
Beginning
Their own story
A gift that is priceless
To all
To be welcomed
As a person

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stop Playing With Me”

You want me
You need me
You don’t call me
But you love me
I’m chasing
My tail
As if it’s my arch enemy
My mind
Is swirling
I’m not comprehending
That
It’s my own damn tail
I’m drooling
And craving
Revenge on
You got me twisting
Like a human pretzel
What do you want from me
Better yet
Get the hell away from me
I feel you are just
Coming back to demolish
What was left of me
That you wasn’t able
To get the first time
You came through
Devastating me
I’m feeling that familiar
Feeling
The hairs
On the back of my neck
Standing at attention
It’s your weird
And creepy presence
That has my body
Overreacting
Are stalking me
Spying on me
Shadowing me
I know
You are waiting to see
When I am happy
To tear that joy
Out of me
Hacking it
To pieces
You are
A life force leech
Sucking all the good
From me
Then leaving me
In a whirling vortex
That makes me dizzy
I have to step back
To reevaluate
Gain a new perspective
I can not
Find my bearings
Anymore
My equilibrium is off
I don’t know
Which way is up
Or if I’m falling
While standing still
I feel my life
Is upside down
The ground
Is where the sky should be
And the sky
Is where the ground should be
I’m not safe
By no means
I’m either going
To fall
Splattering on the ground
Or continue
Drifting into space
For eternity
There is no middle ground for me
Staying in between
Anything
It is not an option
Or being in the gray area
I refuse to let you stay there
I can not
Allow you to float
There indefinitely
We are not
Even in the same books
I’m in Romance and Non-fiction
You’re in Drama and Crime Story
How did I let you
Get away with
Telling
Half truths
Or
Flat out lies
I sit here
Engulfed in my thoughts
Self-reflecting
Questioning how
This puzzle
Can’t be
Piece together
It’s missing
All it’s vital pieces
Was this your intention
To hide
Them from me
I’m finally acknowledging
There is no type of closure
And no way to rebuild from
All the trauma
So let’s just call this
What it is
Uninhabitable territory

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Creating Happiness”

I was in
The thickest of fogs
It surrounded
And followed me
Everywhere I went
Hindering me from
Seeing into my future
My goals
And
Dreams
Were escaping me
I dreamt
As a young child
Watching Disney
Loving the scene
When
A Fairy god mother
Comes to the rescue
To help find the truest of love
A gallant chivalrous Prince
Riding on a white horse

Whisking me off
To our castle
Where we begin
A life
Of happily ever after
Life has dwindled on
Those images
Those are delusions
In this day and age
I would probably be committed
It’s like saying
I spotted big foot
That no one believes
Exist
Except the crazed
In straight jackets
I wanted
To be that happy wife
And proud mother
I just kept meeting
The same quality of men
That turned out mental
With no potential
To see past
The present moment
So I ask
If you are so different
I want to see your actions
And hopefully
You will be
The last real gentleman
To approach
Me as a lady
And not as a piece of meat
You’re splurging on
For just tonight’s dinner
Wham Bam thank you ma’am
Is not in my vocabulary
I will not give it up freely
Your efforts
Have to be
Something that words
Can not come together
To make sentences
If your mind knows
What it wants
The body will act it out
Going on autopilot
So your mouth
Won’t screw it up
By saying something so stupid
So if you know
What you want
Come and get it
Set your mind into motion
To build
A future
With a stranger
Making it happen
With transparency
Letting your action
Persuade me
To fall
In love
With you
And marrying me
Before someone sees
The open opportunity
Because you was not ready

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Closest And Longest Relationship”

I’ve been threatened
With empty threats
My whole life
I was never afraid
Of her
She would
Always tell me
If I wasn’t her child
I’d be dead long ago
I won’t tell any lies
I did test her
Whenever I felt
A need for adrenaline
To run like the wind
So she didn’t catch me
Somedays
I actually thought
I saw hot scalding steam
Come out of her
It was so comical
Bursting out of her head
Ears
And
Mouth
Capable of making
Third degree burns
All over my body
Yet I have no wounds
Scars
Or a dysfunctional relationship
CPS
Was never called
I was always too slippery
I’m all grown up
The same individual
In a supersized package
No longer a child
Now a woman
But I know she’ll always
Have an open contract
On me
And in fine print
It states
She’s the only one
That has permission
To take my life
As she was the one
That gave it to me
That woman
I call Mama
She knows
Who I am
And knows my attitude
Falls between
Mean $itch
And don’t care
Very frequently
I am
What her
And her village
Raised me to be
A great mixture
Of no nonsense
No drama
A lot of Love
Compassion
Straight truth
And
A whole lot of honesty
Mixed
Very thoroughly
I’m not perfect
By any means
Never have been
Never will be
I have my hang ups
Nonchalant attitude
Speak my mind
Without a filter
Mind my own
Damn business
Maneuvering through life
Trying
To not
Be put
In anybody’s
Bull $hit
You will never
Catch me
Ear hustling
A conversation
I barely listen
To the person
Talking directly
To me
I zone out
On a regular
I lack the ability
To keep
My attention
Focused on
The blah blah blahs
Everyone sound like
Charlie Brown’s teacher
I am not pretending
To be
Mother Teresa
I have no mission
To save
The world
The only agenda
Thus far
Is making
Sure my crazy lady
That was born to birth me
Has what she needs
She will never need
To beg from
Anybody
I’m
The first and last in line
Taking on the
Responsibility
I don’t know
How to be selfish
She asks for it
I take care of it
She
Will never be
Something I can’t manage
We grew up
As kids
Side by side
Thick as thieves
Together
No distance
Is too far
To travel
When my heartbeat
Skips a beat
Or flatlines
I’m dropping everything
Running as if I was an Olympian
Breaking record
Breaking time
Winning the gold medal

-Yellowbonewonda

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“In Due Time”

By: Yellowbonewonda

I refuse to
Give new life
To your existence
On a daily
Making your evil
Stay fresh
In my mind
Never letting it
Out of my head
But it needs
To be poured
Into the universe
So I am not rehashing
Old memories
You know
What you did
Don’t worry
I’m not
Plotting against you
It’s not
Up to me
Karma is
A best friend
Of mine
She has my back
And when she calls on me
I will be in the right place
When you least expect it
That day will come
Falling like dominoes
Just know
I am not
That saved
To turn
The other cheek
To get slapped
Twice
I don’t need
To put a curse
On you
Stalk you
On social media
Hate you
In public
Bring attention
To you
Or call you
By your true name
A devil incarnate
A half blood
Walking in this world
Whispering
In everyone’s ears
I’m not going to announce
You
As if I’m your butler
For the world
To see
Who you are
A wolf
In sheep’s clothing
What is
Inside of you
Will present itself
To all that come
In contact with you
I will keep my
Thoughts private
Thinking about you
Every minute of the day
Gives you more power
I’m not willing
To give so freely
I won’t let you
Keep fueling my anger
Making a raging inferno
Inside of me
The real thing
Inside of me
Is stronger than you
Will ever be
It’s like
Echoing church bells
Throughout Italy
I’m hearing the ringing
And a voice
So clearly
Today is
My time to shine
And it will defeat
All my enemies
My kindness is a priveledge
Don’t
Lie to me
Lie on me
Take my name in vain
Steal from me
Try to break me
Sleep with my man
I don’t need
Fake friend
With
Bad intentions
I won’t hunt you to the ends of the Earth
Question you on why you betrayed me
Or stomp your @$$
Like I should
It’s in due time
Today
I’m a lady
Letting Karma
To reward those
That are good
And punish those
That are no damn good
Keeping my hands
Clean

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“Dreaming In The Matrix”

Everyone has the capacity
To be a killer
Some have
Self composure
Knowing
How to balance
Right from wrong
Morality and immorality
Killers are in all forms
Neighbor
Stranger
Friend
Even a family member
No one is beyond
The reach or Evil
When they are the
Criminally insane
With no conscious
To believe
We are not the same
But we all have the same
Components
Organs
Skin
Blood
Bones
And
Limbs
So why is so hard
To realize
We are going
To keep
Repeating
Past mistakes
In a matrix
Of made up
Everything
And
Nothing
Because no one is learning
We can never
Leave until
We see
A way to
Stop being so blind
And selfish
It’s a mirage
That catches your eye
A fantasy
That fills you with glee
It’s like staring
Directly into the sun
Blinding you
From seeing
The truth
You’re walking
And touching
Everything
But not knowing what
Is staring
Right back at you
With the absence
Of vison

Your are
Believing
What the mass population
Is telling you
Made up fantasies
Going off their imagination
Coming from
A blissful ignorance
It’s the blind
Leading the blind
They can not see
What they
Don’t want to see
Your safety is not real
You can not be
Too comfortable
To trust someone
Explicitly
You never know
Who is plotting
To take
What is yours
Your life
Your freedom
Your family
Or your valuables
The reality is
Nothing is yours
When you die
Another person
Gets your property
Look around
At all the masters
Of manipulation
There are red buttons
In every city
Country
And on every planet
Waiting to be pushed
Unveiling the inevitable
This place
We live in
Is not a piece
Of heaven
We need to realize
We are living in
Purgatory
Going through
This lifetime
On a continuum
With no end
To this everlasting story
The play button
Has been pushed
Then we get to the end
And someone rewinds
The Earth’s cycle
To repeat again
And again
Until we are civil
And loving
To one another
God doesn’t want
This devastation in heaven
So we will be stuck
Here for eternity

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Shattered Can’t Be Fixed”

By: Yellowbonewonda

As humans
We have been
Conditioned
To fix
The unfixable
Things that are broken
Beyond repair
Relationships
Gone astray
That are abusive
Unhealthy
Draining
On an already
Heavy
And tortured soul
Two people

Caught in a web
Of using each other
For what they are
Both missing
One broken
In half
The other
Shattered beyond
Repair
Trying to fix
Each other’s damage
With not enough
Love
Between them
To heal
Open
And bleeding wounds
Inside them
They are both
Blinded by
The idea of love
Seeking it
From anyone
Including an empty vessel
When people
Linger
In their past
Not letting it go
Or getting help
To acknowledge
Their pain
They will never
Take on responsibility
Of their present self
Living in today
They will use distractions
Or find an outlet
Using
Materialistic things
As coverage
To continue in their denial
Covering up
What can not be covered
With the newest fashion
Living
A life
Surrounded by
Smoking mirrors
Which cast off
Backwards reflections
Of demons within
Fighting so hard
To keep them from
Feeling true emotions
Staying numb
Day to day
Nothing and no one
Should tie down
Anyone’s spirit
Making you feel
There is no way out
Things are replaceable
And relationships that
Engulf your human nature
Are not healthy
And Should be
Released
Before
You too
Reach
Their level
Of Shattered
Instead of
Just broken
And repairable
Don’t hold on to
Anyone
Just for
Sentimental attachment

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“Doing What I’m Paid For”

My days
Have always
Been the same
When it comes
To work
Same crap
Different day
Come to work
Leave work
Mind my own business
I don’t waste
Precious time
To ask
How are you doing
What are you up to
How was your weekend
Where are you going
After work
It’s not my business
I don’t believe in
Idol conversation
That I have
No interest in
Getting to know those
That are not
Interested
In getting to know me
Beyond what they hear
From silly ninnies
That have never
Sat down
And had
A conversation with me
Yet always
Have an opinion
About who I am
What I’ve done
Who I’m with
If I’m a liar
Or someone crazy
Needing to be committed
I choose my friends
Carefully
Small circle
Easy to know
Who has betrayed me
I avoid any
Unnecessary spotlight
Being photographed
With people
I don’t care for
To keep from
Answering questions
Or someone assuming
I am friends with them
I keep in my place
Staying under the radar
Almost invisible
Blending in

Like a chameleon
But when I need to
I will be ferocious
Defending myself
From people
Taking
My kindness
For weakness
I will
Make waves
That will drown
Cities
So I rather
Walk a straight line
Staying in my lane
Doing what I was paid to do
Taking care of my customers
Making their day
A little better
Good service
Lots of laughter
Doing over and beyond
Then shut it off
After I’ve clocked
Out
Going home to my life
Don’t think
I’m heartless
When someone
I worked with
Ask for help
I will spring
Into action
Helping them out
It’s in my job description
To be a team player
And once the task
Is complete
I will retreat
Back into
My solitude
Working to get things
Ready before
The next rush
It’s called planning
Organization
And a stress reducer
Being everready
Not caught slipping
And being overwhelmed
Taking the day
I’ve been handed
And making it easier

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Worst Enemy Is My Body”

By: Yellowbonewonda

My body
Is betraying me
Taking me through
So much pain
And confusion
I am asking
Why is this
Happening
I have some messed up
Things inside of me
Fighting against
Each other
They hate being
Part of a happy system
Working together
To have a healthy body
It’s a mental
And physical war
With no end
I’m at my wits end
I’ve tried everything
That was humanly possible
It is time
To resort
To something
Very radical
I am putting in
An ad for
A mad genius
Into making good on
Unimaginable procedures
That will take
On the impossible task
To detach my head
From my shoulders
While keeping me alive
Until
My body stop acting
As if its my worst enemy
Who knows
Why my
Nerves
Joints
Immune system
And
Blood circulation
Are doing
Their own thing
Causing trouble
And messing up
My delusion of harmony
I thought
I was
Doing good
On my upkeep
Giving relaxation sessions
Cheat days
Of giving in to
Whatever it was craving
I guess not
This is too much to bare
Almost unforgivable
This head of mine
Does not have good intentions
Its killing me
From the inside
Out
Very slowly
It’s torturous
There is
A weight on my shoulders
As if I’m carrying
Mount Everest
I am sinking
Under the Earths surface
The sun is disappearing
I’m living into darkness
My eyes are half massed
I’m walking like the living dead
I feel all types of pressure
From my head
To the bottom of my feet
It’s surrounding me
Suffocating me
Getting closer
Too close
I’m sick to my stomach
This pressure
Is driving me
To be psychotic
I’m unable to think clearly
There is not rationale
In my ranting
I just want
To be pardoned
From this prison
I can not do a lifetime
Sentence
With my body
On a rampage
Making its own decisions
Causing so much pain
That it is mind blowing
Help me before
It’s too late
To save me

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“Dead Bones”

When you become an adult
You should
Get rid of childish things
Giving it a proper
Burial
Placing it
Where dead bones
Should be
In a grave
Six feet deep
But instead those items
Are kept
Like souvenirs
Picked up
Over the years
Packed up in boxes
To the ceiling
Never getting thrown out
Causing you
To be an extreme hoarder
Why do you
Think your life
Does not matter
So much
You need such baggage
You’re giving
Over your free will
And all your power
To people
Who don’t matter
You give them so
Much control
To dictate
Your every move
When you have a big responsibility
To live your life
As it should be
Without any direction
From those dictators
You act
As if
You are their puppet
Telling you what to do
How to do it
When to do it
Why are you
So willing to give up
So easily
Laying down
Without a fight
Letting people
Kick dirt on you
Where is your courage
To fight
You have made significant successes
In your life
However small
They are full of positivity
Laughter and happiness
Yet you are not willing
To see
Simple beauty
In its purest form
Because it’s not
What you wish it to be
You want it bigger
Like someone else’s
Whatever
No one has it better
Than the other
We all carry
Those skeletons in our closet
Holding on to them

Like a favorite blanket
We would carry around
As a child
For safety
But in order to make progress
We have to be
An individual
Of tremendous power
Being someone to be reckoned with
Going to a place
Of destiny

-Yellowbonewonda

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