“Heart Stolen By A Thief “

A thief
Came in the night
While I was sleeping
Stole what was irreplaceable
When he could not find
My valuables
My money
My gold
Or my diamonds
In my house
He stole my prize possession

My heart
From a hidden safe
I was devastated
Fearing the worst
I was empty
Feeling nothing
But lost
I reported it to the police
Calling on the media
To help
I had a volunteer search team
Around the clock
I hired a private eye
To find this crook
I posted flyers
With pictures
On every window
Billboard
And tree trunk
In all surrounding counties
Begging this stranger
To return
It immediately
It’s mine
And it’s killing me
Every minute
It is not with me
I will give about anything
A handsome reward
Fit for a king
All my possessions
But to no recourse
All my requests
Went on deaf ears
I began
Wishing for death
How can I go
Through life
Without my heart
As days went by
I got ransom letters
That didn’t ask
For money
He said
He wanted me
And not just part of me
All of me
I wasn’t ready to give that
To this stranger
That took the best part of me
This horrible
Hold he has on me
Keeps me up at at night
I can not eat
Thinking about
How much
He’s asking from me
This is not an easy
Request
To give to a stranger
My priceless treasure
My heart
Worth
More than life itself
How can I trust
A thief
That has
Taken and hidden it
In a place
Unknown to me
I want what is mine
My heart
I need it
Returned
To me
In my hands
Put back
Under lock and key
Guarded
Protected
From heartbreak
And life devastation
At least for
A moment
So I can just breath
Peacefully

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Why Are Children So Disrespectful”

We got some good kids
We got some bad kids
We all are responsible
We need the village
To come together
To raise these children
From being so disrespectful
Entitled
And belligerent
We need
The older lady
Sitting on the windowsill
The teacher
In the classroom being present
The principal
Walking the hallways and checking bathrooms
The parents
Being involved in every aspect
Making kids accountable
For their actions
Teaching these children
They are years from being
Adults
And only when
They can earn
A living
Able to live
On their own
Paying bills
And contributing
Their tax dollars
Then they will be able
To be in charge
Of their life
Why is it
Some children
Have no vision
To see beyond
Their circumstances
Seeing the big picture
That their childhood
Only comes once
And they should live it
Being carefree and
Loving the time
Of being just a kid
With only one responsibility
To go to school
Get an education
Follow their dreams
Strive for it
And know that
Everything
Outside of that
Does not matter
Fighting people
Because they are looking
At them wrong
Or talking behind
Their back
Gossiping telling lies
They rush to the extreme
Instead of talking
They are using weapons
Kids are dying
Too soon
Over snapped decisions
We as adults
Need to put these children
Back in their place
Be involved in everything
They do
Inside and outside
Of the home
Being there for them
All children
Need guidance
They are our future
Leaders
So let’s change this
Before it’s too late
And the problem
Gets bigger

– Yellowbonewonda

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“Do It Like You Mean It”

Drink me
Eat me
Devour me
Need me

And
Give me the hidden
Part of you
No one has seen

It’s the secret
You’ve been
Keeping
From everyone

But because
I’m special
A missing piece of you
The One

You’ve dreamt about
All of your life
You will give it to me
Freely

You will feel
You are drowning
And you will need
To kiss me

To breathe
Because only
Through me
You can live

Kiss me like
You mean it
With all of your
Inner being

Your spirit
Your soul
That is filled with
Untapped passion

Love and lust
That will scare you
To know it was
Built up

Only for me
And no one else
Give me
All of you

That no one
Has ever had a chance
Of seeing
Feeling or experiencing

I want to be
The
One to drain you
Of your misery

Your Hurt
Your anger
Recharging you
With all of me

Filling your emptiness
Quenching your thirst
With my energy
As you come into my embrace

Let me be
Your paradise
The island
You come to

That no one
Knows about
That allows you be
Happy and hungry

For my touch
My love
My essence
I will be your fantasy

Your reality
Your refuge
That you escape to
From all the craziness

You face
In this world
That take away
Your mental stability

– Yellowbonewonda

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“Rescue Mission For Humanity”

On top of devastation
There are
Evil minds
With idol hands
Taking advantage
Getting ideas
Of making a quick buck
Price gouging
Necessities
Shooting at rescuers
Trying to steal their boats
Because they are selfish
Preying on people
Trying to survive
In this crisis
People
Already
Heartbroken
Defeated
Lost
Confused
Worn out
It’s a miraculous thing
People
Coming together
Everything set aside
Racism
Hate
And Politics
Love
And support
Over pouring
Hearts are open
We Are The People
Hand and hand
Coming together
In a disaster
No one could prepare for
Or could imagine
The catastrophic
Lengths
That mother nature
Would go to
Her plan
To teach
Anyone
In her way
Showing if we
Don’t take care of her
Like she takes
Care of us
She would show her power
A wrath of great proportions
This storm is a warning
It’s unprecedented
For the record books
To go out three times
To the gulf
Gathering up
More strength
Returning
Pouring everything
On everyone
As if she was cleansing
Her lands
To make all of us
Understand
She has the power
And we live here
Only because
She lets us

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Why Is Life Undervalued”

How is it
That physical property
Things that you buy
That have a price tag
Are more important
Than human life
People
Your
Priorities
Are completely
Backwards
So much
It is ridiculous
Water is rising
All around you
Surrounding you
Boxing you in
Trapping you
With no way out
If someone comes
To the rescue
Don’t wave
Them off
When they arrive
You need to evacuate
Your pride needs
To be set aside
Your stubbornness
Needs to be
Put to rest
Take the help
That God sends you
He lead them to you
To save your life
Water is not something
To be played with
It is
One of the most
Powerful
Wonders on this Earth
It choses
Its own path
To sustain
Life
Or cause death
It has no conscious
It knows it’s purpose
So why
Don’t you know yours
Where is your
Self preservation
Don’t wait until
The last minute
To have a clarity
In judgement
To get out
And the water
Is over your head
And you are drowning
Common sense
Is to live
And protect
Your family
All things bought
Can be replace
Human
Life
Once gone
It’s gone
There is no recovery
From death
Stuff you think
You are saving
Does not get buried
With you
It is not hard
To compute
Leave your home
To safe ground
And live a life
That you was gifted
Please
Be sensible
Because the consequences
Can never
Be undone

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Storm Of Reckoning”

Something so
Wonderful
Is going on
Everyone’s thoughts
Are lingering
On doom and gloom
The storm
Is not a storm
Of destruction
Your thoughts and fears
Are misleading you
Take another look outside
Through clear eyes
See the beauty
A cleansing is going on
And those that are scared
Are hiding
The wind is blowing
With great strength
Developing
As tornadoes
Hurricanes
Tsunamis
Trying to remove demons
Possessing everyone
With no soul
The thunder is roaring
To scare the rest of them
That stayed
Behind
Hiding in the darkness
Waiting to be forgotten
So they can begin again
Tempting people
To fall off their path
Once again
So that they can
Easily steal souls
From Jesus
The rain is falling
At a rapid pace
Tears from our guardian angels
Spreading holy water
Casting out
The left over demons
Driving all the
Evil away from
This place
Causing a rebirth
To new life
New decisions
For the ones
Of great power
That are able
To make a change
To change
Their minds
Before The Almighty comes down
And pass judgement
On those that
Are leading
Everyone astray
People are in denial
Fighting and saying
Who is best
To guide them
But no one is
Choosing wisely
When they keep choosing
A man
Who thinks
He’s god
But he is a false
Prophet
Leading them
To damnation
No one on this Earth
Man nor woman
Can make anything
Great again
But the Almighty
So start praying
To him
To hardened this crooked
Man’s heart
So he will
Be seen in his true image

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Where Is Love”

This society
Is continually
Going down
The crapper
More and more people
Are not taking
Personal responsibility
Of their actions
The entitlement
Some people have
Their priorities
Are screwed up
Just me
Me
Me
People use sex
As recreation
Jumping bed to bed
With strangers
Just unzip
And there you go
Going at it
Like
Jack rabbits

It’s almost
A fading memory
When people
Would get
To know
Each other
Falling in love
Getting married
And having a family
There is no more
Love making
Just screwing
Each other’s
Brains out
Not caring
About the consequences
Sexual diseases
Without a cure
That kill
Or lifetime commitments
Babies
With the wrong
Damn person
Populating a world
That is already dying
From Pollution
Terrorism
Racism
Disease
And pure ignorance
It’s too many
Mama’s babies
Daddy’s maybes
Sleeping around
So much
Not knowing
Who is her child’s daddy
Or she knows
Who he is
And he denies
All accusations
Saying
They never slept together
He wore a condom
And if he didn’t
Wear a condom
Saying his pull out
Game is on point
He can’t be the daddy
This is not a game
A child is involved
Baby mama drama
Deadbeat dads
Unwanted babies
Unfit parents
Just because
They didn’t want
The
Responsibility
It’s just
Too much
Stupidity
Just take
Personal responsibility
Keep your legs closed
Clothes on
Take sex
Out of the equation
And get to know
Who you are
Dealing with
Avoiding consequences
Of a few exciting
Or disappointing minutes
That could cause misery
For the rest
Of your life
Or better
Yet kill you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What Is It About Me”

I’ve always been
Honest
To a fault
With everyone
Saying what’s on my mind
With no regrets
I have no built
Up aggressions
Anyone can sense
Unless
You’ve done something
To me
And you will know
How I’m feeling
I don’t do fakeness
I know who I am
It’s only
One thing
About me
I can not explained
My mother and I
Have always questioned
Why kids
Are mesmerized by me
I’m a worldwide sensation
Everywhere I travel
Around the world
Children stare at me
As if they are seeing something
Unexplainable
Even for them
It’s as if
They are catatonic
No voice
No words
No type of communication
I try to break the ice
By making jokes
Asking them
Is cake on my face
And when the child says nothing
I wave good-bye
Walking away
Knowing their reaction
To search for me
When I’m out of their sight
Almost breaking their neck
The parent is amazed
Their child
Takes to a stranger
So easily
Laughing in a nervous laugh
As their child
Sit in their stroller
In a trance
Still smiling
But not saying nothing
The answers I get
From the older generation
Babies and toddlers

See
Guardian angels
Or evil spirits
I know it’s guardian angels
Around me
Causing the look on their face
It’s not fear
It is pleasant
Playful
And soothing to them
I’ve stopped babies
From crying
Throwing tantrums
With just showing my face
Silencing them
As if I had
An on and off switch
In a glance
Putting them at ease
Only when I leave
They snap out of it
Resuming to being their self

-Yellowbonewonda

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“We Come As One”

I’m not into small talk
Let’s skip to the bottom line
If you say you want
To get to know me
There is a matter
Of importance
We must discuss
If you haven’t noticed
I am a mother
I’m looking for a man
That can except that
Knowing if you date me
You will be entering into
A package deal
You can not choose
To be with me
Ommiting the other
Half of me
This special person
That stands
Behind me
Holding on for dear life
With his little hands
At my waist
Peaking his head
Around me
Shyly smirking at you
He’s not a puppy
You can not
Pet him on the head
And think he will run away
And play
And entertain his self
While you get with his mother
He’s my son
And you will have
Talk to him
Get to know him
Build a relationship
Being his male role model
Teaching him how
To be greater than
What he is now
He is the greatest kid
You would ever meet
He’s well mannered
Respectful
Energetic
Loving
Happy
And protective of his mother
He is
My baby
My heart
My breath
My everything
Before anything
And anyone
There is no one in this
World
That matters the most to me
I gave birth to him
Wiped his tears
Fed
Clothed
And fell in love with him
At first sight
He is a gift to me
From his first
Breath
And until his last
No one can break this bond
We are forever linked
No man
Will ever come between that
I will fight for him
To the death
You will not disrespect him
In anyway
Because you feel he is not your blood
That’s why we are talking
About this now
He is mine
And if you want a life with me
He will be ours
I’m not that crazy mom
That lets a child
Dictate who I’m with
Or run my house
He is my child
And his well-being
Is my ultimate responsibility
He will respect you
Being in a child’s place
So think it through
Carefully
Before you say you want a relationship
I’m his mother
And his well-being
Is priority
I need a man
Who gets that
And wants the same things
To be a complete loving family
I need an example
For my son
So when he grows up
He will be an honorable man
Strong and a leader

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Give Me Memories”

That day so long ago
You took your chance
Now I’m taking mine today
Telling you how I feel
And what I’m missing
From this relationship
Before I pack my bags
And leave never looking back
Please let’s fix us
Before it’s too late
I refuse to
Fade in the dark
So I’m giving you a chance
To correct this problem
And remember
The way you got me
Is the way you keep me
I won’t settle
For less
I am a Queen
Be my King
My protector
My lover
My companion
My best friend
Fill this void in me
With your love
Recharge my energy
Renew my spirit
Let’s get our
Hearts beating
Like before
As one
Getting back
In tune
Making beautiful music
Filling our life back up
With magic
Today
Tomorrow
And all our future days
Until death
Do us part
You said I am
Your everything
Your only love
Your true love
Your future wife
The mother
Of your unborn children
Then treat me as
If I’m worth it
By putting in some effort
You fought so hard
In the beginning
To win me over
To be my man
Then get me
And treat me like a stranger
That you just met
Off some street corner
I’m tired of begging
I refuse to continue waiting
I will not live my life
Being complacent
Not being appreciated
I can not continue to be
Your favorite piece
Of furniture
Always staying in my place
Waiting
For you to lay on me
Every night
Because you’re comfortable
Either you hear me
Or lose me
I need to be
Outside this confined space

I want
Dates
Adventures
New memories
That cause butterflies to dance
In my stomach
I want surprises of little trinkets
That make me giggle
And blush
That show you were thinking
Of me
Different parts of your busy day
I want to feel special
Like I once felt
When you looked at me
And said
Damn I need her number
I miss that look
You had in your eyes
Like I was a gourmet steak
Come on hun
Come work
For your dinner
You won’t be sorry
I’m worth it
And don’t fill up too soon
Save room
Because I’m also your dessert

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Not Disgracing Myself”

You almost made me
Come out
Of my character
From being a lady
To become something
Much worst
A scorned woman
Out for blood
An evil incarnate

Looking for ways
To torture you
I will be that predator
Playing with my meal
Until you feel
The intensity of my wrath
Taking chunks of flesh
From your body
Waiting for you to wish
for death
But before the horns raised
My claws sharpened
And my blood thirst
Became uncontrollable
The thoughts of revenge
Vanished
I began laughing
Snapping back into character
Remembering
What my mother told me
If you’ve out grown your toys
Then give them to the needy
Since you can’t keep it
In your pants
Your price tag is free
To fight over a man
A cheater
A liar
That used my love
As a weapon against me
Spoon feeding me lies
Of women
Coming on to him
And he was so overwhelmed
He just fell into bed with them
Thinking I was a fool
To believe him
Acting as if he didn’t
Have self control
But if the shoe
Was on the other foot
He would leave me
So I’m being the better
Of the two of us
Walking away
Giving him
His freedom
To chase for twenty
Losing your eighty
So when you see me happy
With another
Please keep moving
Never looking back at me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Look Closer To Her Face”

For every moment
Of happiness
There is sorrow
In the hearts
Of every girl and woman
As
A daughter
When she comes in the world
She cries for her first breath
Not knowing the world around her
To be safe
As
A mother
She sees the world
At its worst
She cries for her love ones life
Hoping they come home safely
Every night
As
A grandmother
When her world comes to an end
She cries for peace
To wash over
Everyone she leaves behind
Hoping they
Will be happy
And remember her in their hearts
In her life
There are more than a million tears
That will go unnoticed
That will flow
Many times down her
Beautiful face
That you can trace
By looking
From her eyes down to her cheeks

Every teardrop will be bigger than
The next
Echoing louder than the other
Making huge puddles
Around her feet
Gathering throughout her life
Causing waves that could take out nations
She has carried many burdens
Many times over
In a world of many wrongs
Making the strongest spirit
Feel powerless
Impossible to protect those she cherish
Because her family thinks she’s crazy
Overprotective
Or a mess
She knows the truth
In this day and age
Her maternal instincts
Are fined tuned
To her loves
From the moment they leave
And return
Where they are considered safe
So no matter
How many times
You say don’t worry
She will
Wait and
Think
Of the what Ifs
Whenever she feels
Evil is lurking
She is always praying for
Everyone’s safety
Hers
Yours
Everybody’s
Everyday
Nonstop
So I beg you to understand
A woman may cry many tears
Throughout her life
But the thing is
To stop
Letting them go unnoticed
Wipe her tears
And appreciate her worry
Knowing she is the one that loves
Unconditionally
With every part of her being
Stop being so dismissive
Because you don’t feel
What she feels
She is grandmother
Mother and daughter
With a loving heart
So she is valid

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What Life Could Be”

You must have been
An angel
Heaven sent
I was caught
In a daze
As my eyes
Met yours
To my surprise
A sparkle
Illuminating within them
Gave me peace
I couldn’t move
As you vanquished
All my misery
And negativity
Pushing
The darkness
Within me
Into the light
No more things
That go bump
In night
They’ve stopped haunting
Me
For the first time in my life
You’ve done miracles
That no one
Else could do
It’s as if I’ve died
And gone to heaven
Surrounded by the warmth of God’s grace
Finally fulfilled
Walking through gardens
Of blossoming fruits and flowers
That blossom for eternity
Where everything is plentiful
With no reason to return
To this awful place
You are a true master
Of all beasts
To calm all of them
Within me
As you took your chance
With a passionate embrace
Pulling me into you
As you cupped my face

When your lips
Touched mine
I felt our heartbeats
Become one
Giving me the true meaning
Of being loved
And feeling safe
I was lost for so long
After wondering
Aimlessly
Going in cirles
Chasing dreams
That would vanish
When I got close
But
With one kiss
Planted a seed in me
Of pure happiness
Nothing else mattered
A bubble surrounded us
As the world went silent
And everything froze
Into place
I didn’t know
That falling in love with you
Could be so sudden
But it felt like I known you
All my life
To bring me
Such a beautiful gift
And a promise
Of
Peace
Love
Security
And happiness
For the rest of my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Confidence Not Conceited”

I walk with pride
Head held high
Leaving footprints
Behind
Showing you where
I’ve come from
And where I’m heading
If you think to follow
My path
Keep up
I’m not slowing down
I’m walking with a purpose
Not going in circles
I’m focused
I will go
As far as my thick luscious legs
Will carry me
I am not conceited
By no means
Just taught
To weed out the bullies
That would call me
Names Otherthan
My given
Having self awareness
Is my greatest power
To be an individual
With high self-esteem
To beat those that don’t
At a game
That they can not play with me
Because I’ve already won
Not stooping to their level
Just by being me
Something they don’t know about
It’s just mandatory
For a fighter
To know for a fact
No one can break me
Or hinder me from my purpose
Because after I was made
The mold was broken
Making no efforts
To duplicate
My combination of genes
Was deliciously put together
And in that
There was a magnificent creation
Of a confident warrior
Not afraid to say
I am special
And when I look in a mirror
The reflection
Staring back at me
Is a beautiful queen
That has her own power

My smile is described to me as warming
Friendly and comforting
To those that are willing
To get to know me
I give off a scent
So sweet and alluring
That smell like carmel
As though
It’s been poured all over me
From head to toe
I always have a following
Of pets and children
And I think that’s the reason
But what do I know
It’s whatever it maybe
I’m just guessing

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Read The Disclaimer”

In any kind of relationship
I encounter
My love is the most guarded
Part of me
My sensitive side
My vulnerable side
It’s exciting and contagious
I’m selective in my VIPs
That may see
Or experience it
It comes at a high price
No one can afford
It’s priceless
And valued more than any materialistic thing on this planet
That are man made
And have a price tag
Of cash value
When I feel love and loyalty is reciprocated
I see the beauty of creativity
In the smallest detail
Quality outdoes quantity to me
My bond with you is for life
I just ask you
To take consideration
That
This is a piece of me
Once given
Can’t be given back
The same way
It can only heal
Leaving ugly scars
And I won’t be able to cover it
That’s why I beg you to
Please
Agree before you take it
To promise
That you will nurture and protect it
From this day to eternity
To truly see it
At it’s fullest blossom
I don’t give it
Just to anyone
I will always
Disclose it in a disclaimer
In black and white
And full blown color
So it’s not misunderstood
Or taken lightly
Read the fine print and hear me
On the importance of how to take care of it
My love is a special edition
Once you’ve been loved by me
It will be very unlikely
That you will ever forget the experience
I’m very bold
And very direct
My intentions
Are unfortgettable
I leave no doubt of my feelings
Extremely forward
And self assured
Sometimes I come across
As an aggressive
Or mean as some may describe me
But I’m leaving nothing to chance
There are no head games
What you see is
What you get
I tell you exactly what I want and what I like
I have no what ifs
Running through my head
At night
My words I speak
Come with no regrets
I have a fire
That burns bright and hot
If you are not ready for it
It will burn you to a crisp
Loyalty and honesty is pivotal to a solid foundation
With me
I protect and encourage anyone I love
To be at their best
And be better than the rest
Not letting no one speak ill of them
In my presence
It’s beneath me to just “quit”
On someone or something
If I find no evidence to support
The crimes they’ve done against me
But when I do the find evidence
It will be swift judgement
So don’t betray me
Because it will be immediate
When your chances will be
Permanently revoked
And you will be
Without the fulfillment of my deepest love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Rain Drops”

It was something about the rain
That energized
And
Comforted me
As a child
I would love to play in it
Running back and forth
Splashing in it
And trying to dodge
Every drop
That eventually hit me
In my face
Causing me to
Laugh so hysterically
For no other reason but pure happiness
And the joy of being free
I was a child having fun
No electronic devices
No tv
Just outside
Having fun
Doing my one and only job
Being a kid
Doing my best
At playing
Laughing and enjoying
A child’s life
To the extreme
Holding nothing back
As puddles would gather
In certain places
I would have no other choice
To find the biggest puddles
That would get me in the most trouble
Getting soaked
From head to toe
To a point
It looked as if
I had been swimming
It was a wonderful thing being innocent
I miss it so dearly
Because the day that my innocence vanished
It was hardly even noticed
As I developed from child to a teenager
Becoming the most unappreciative
Of what made me fearless
The best part of me
My inner child spirit
I started neglecting
And stop nurturing
So it could grow
To develop into a better me
Instead I became
Very skeptical
Losing the meaning of life’s
Important lesson
To live it to the fullest
Without a care
Of anyone’s opinion
Being carefree
With a vivid imagination
That took me to a mystical places
While wearing
My rose colored glasses
That made my life look so beautiful
Without any restraints
Constricting my creativity
With no fears of failure
Just trying and trying
Until I got better at it
So today I begin my journey
To recapture my magic
Recovering what I was meant to be
An unstoppable
Unpredictable woman
That is capable
Of running
With true direction
Pushing the very limits
To getting to my final destination
And winning my prize
In finding
My greatest power
Buried so deep inside of me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Only Looking On The Surface”

Just because you
Don’t see it
Doesn’t mean it
Doesn’t exist
People
You assume are healthy
At first glance
Are dying
Under the surface
An accelerated death
At a young age
A disease within them
Given to them
By their family hertiage
Sucking the very life
Out of them
Causing them to doubt
The length
Of their life expectancy
All alone
Living in doom and gloom
In a downfall
Of negative visions
Giving up
Before fighting
After a doctor
Has giving the statics
Forcing a flashback of their life
Second guessing
All their life decisions
A war is going on
Inside of them
And their immune system
Is losing valuable positioning
Their body is rejecting all
Of their dreams of future endeavours
You look at them
It’s just not registering
You are not seeing it
Because your eyes are deceiving you
Making you feel it’s unbelievable
A vibrant person
That’s just begun their life
Couldn’t be dying
It’s just not possible
It’s a denial reflex
Until witnessing their breakdown
Their emotions are intense
And it’s as if you’re on pins and needles
It’s pouring out so rapidly from the depths
Of their spirit
They are giving you an abundance
Of information
In one moment
Telling you the secret
They’ve been keeping for so long
Saying it was always a possibility
That just became a reality
Using their stupid pride
As an excuse
For not telling you
Because they didn’t want to be pitied
By anyone especially you
But not knowing it wouldn’t be pity
Just concern of their well-being
After the shock has worn off
Then your angry kicks in
Thinking all this time
Why didn’t you tell me
There was no need for you
To be stressing
All alone with this horrible secret
So the gears change again
In your head
From anger to compassion
Jumping into the mindset
To be supportive
To stand by their side
Giving encouragement
To keep them from thinking
Their future is nonexistent
Replacing their doubts
Of
A future of happiness
With a wife of their choosing and children
Witnessing
Them growing up
From a mere seedling
To a healthy vibrate little being
Squishy and loveable
At first meeting
A piece of him and her forever tied together
For eternity
Only if he will open his heart to wanting it
More than his death sentence

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Hitting Rock Bottom”

It’s a moment in time
That is upon us
Pandora’s box has been opened
Making crazy people
More dangerous
Not liking those that are different
All hate and disease
Are flying around us
The spores are taking us
By the thousands
Like prisoners
Turned into savages
Fighting for scraps
The government is providing
The laws of our lands are changing
Because we are without
A chief commander
Not supportive
Of our forefather’s
To building a nation
Of promise
With freedom to live
And be prosperous
Society is losing
Every part of
What made us human
Not following
What God
Provided us
His word
And true promise
We lost our way
After the government
Banded
All religious confinements
Of prayer and mediation
To ground us
In places
That it should not have been demolished
In school
And
In government
We need him
To cast the devil
Out of all of us
That have fallen into the trap
The devil has set
And laughing at all the souls
He’s collected
With the government leaders
Leading the way
Using greed as the new policy
Taking everything from
Those that are poor
Or barely floating above water
Then using the closed minded cowards
To march in
Peaceful rallies
Provoking violence and murder
Behind ignorance
Because those people thought
They were priveledged
They lack
Of will they have to live and let live
But they think no one is worthy
Of living among them
Please tell me
Where’s the government
In protecting the communities
That are targetted
We are losing a fight that should have been over
After laws were placed
And freed us
All

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What Would You Do”

To all men in the world
What would you do
If you had the opportunity
To say it to your mother
Would you let those
Words slip from your mouth
To call her anything
Other than mother
Using words
So disrespectful
So demeaning
So harming to her
That would pierce deep down
To her inner core
Shattering
Her heart
Destroying her world
Witnessing such vile words
That poured like water
Out of your mouth
So easily
Making her ponder
How could she have ever
Birth
Such a coward
A monster
The biggest fool
Incapable of honoring
Someone so irreplaceable
But if you’re not that type of man
Your mother raised

Why would you do it
To your child’s mother
A woman you said you love
Forever
Your life and hers are intertwined
She was once
Your rib
The reason you made
A decision to have a family
You vowed to protect
Love and respect her
For better or worst
But you let your frustrations out on her
Because you let life outside
Your home
Dictate your emotions
Causing a violent storm in your home
That should have been your refuge
A place so sacrade
But evil was let in
Allowing you to
Forget what you built
From nothing
Changing the dynamics of your situation
Becoming her closest enemy
Stabbing her so closely
Starring into her eyes
As she crys
Then expecting her to
Lay right next to you
After you disregarded her
As a mere stranger that
Was begging for some money
The damage is done
The relationship will evolve
And she will begin to question
The rest of her life with you
Because you’ve almost reduced it to nothing
By calling her something
Other than Baby or Sweetheart

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Closed Circle”

I’ve always been that person
To sit back and observe
To see who will have my back
When I’m pinned against
The wall
Unable to move
Or call out
Because my screams have been muffled
I just pray
That the people
That know me
As a special individual
Always will have
The best of intentions
Being the ones
That will always
Come to my rescue
You have to be picky
These days
Because you have a lot of people
With no conscious and evil ambitions
It’s sad you have to
Do a FBI investigation
Into the background
Of those you let into
Your inner circle

Some stragglers
Are illusionist
That will play on your emotions
Pretending to be wounded
When they are actually
Wolves in sheep’s clothing
Coming to dinner
To devour your life
Displaying your secrets
To enemies that want to hurt you
Just to make their life
Look a little better
So wake up
People are creatures of habit
And will have no other choice
To remove their mask
And show who they really are
And when you see this
Stop your denial
You can not continue
To be so accepting
Constantly giving excuses
Saying
Oh it’s just “Susan”
And “Susan” is the one
Spreading your secrets
And blatantly being disrespectful
True friends or family members
That are really genuine
Will support
You in every effort
Being proud
And cheering
For you and what you’ve accomplished
Out of support and pure love
Without hesitation
Keeping your secrets
As if they were their secrets
For all their living days

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Burn Your Old Baggage”

What do you stand for
When you have no foundation
Or a backbone
That will help you to take chances
To be a better person
That will contribute
And gain value to your existence
You live in the past
Bringing your old baggage with you
To new relationships and new people
That had nothing to do
With your previous mistreatment
You compare everything
Someone else did to you
Calling the new person
On everything they do
Because you never had the chance
To voice your anger
To the perpetrators
That it should have been directed to
Giving the brunt of your hurt
To the undeserving
Causing conflict and misery
To a situation
That didn’t deserve
To be handled
With venomous intent
To kill someone’s spirit
Because you didn’t handle
Your own mental issues
That you developed
Long before anyone else met you
Future people didn’t hurt you
You was the other person’s victim
A new person has no clue
How screwed up
You truly are
So you need to step back
Reevaluate the choices
You are making
And realize
That in not fixing
Your mental instabilities
Your causing harm to everyone
Around you
You must stop playing the victim
After the first chance you gave
And they
Then took you for granted
Again and again
You made
That concusious decision
To continue your repeating pattern
This havoc is damaging
If you don’t confront it
It’s time that you take control
Of you and your emotions
Acknowledge those deep down open scars
Finding a way to heal them
Better yet
Just mourn your lost

Give it the proper Viking burial
Lighting that crap into flames
Stand steadfast
To witness it
Becoming ashes
And getting blown away
Allowing the broken you
To fly away with it

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Animal Insincts”

I’m reduced to
Waiting for someone
To feed me my food
Through a closed
Fortified door

People still feel my frustration
Fearing my aggressiveness
Afraid of my sharp teeth
And razor cut claws
These prison guards know
How much I hunger for freedom
And if they make one slip up
I won’t waste my opportunity
They think I am the lesser of humanity
That my life is not valuable as any other life
On this Earth
I watch as they Kill us
One by one as if it’s for sport
Mounting our heads on their wall
As if it was a fair fight
Using bullets
Tazers and tranquilizer darts
Pretending to be the ultimate predator
But come at me without your weapons
And you will see my aggressive nature
I have been a caged animal
For so long
Captured by man
Taken from my home
Separated from my pride
A magnificent beast
I was
Full of life
No one could compare me
To any other
I turned heads by my shining grace
I was a majestic royal
I made the laws of the lands
Even though it’s confusing
I was feared by everyone
And loved by all
Top of the food chain
Inside my own domain
Now I’m reduced to
People’s amusement
They point and laugh
At my sadness
I’m stuck in this cage
Missing my home
Imprisoned for the rest of my life
I’m disappearing
Diminishing to a mere house pet
I must remember everyday
And not be broken down
I am a fierce predator
That stands in front of you
I have strong bloodlines
Coursing through my veins
Calming my spirit
Encouraging me to imagine
The crisp air back home
Feeding the predator in me
I am not just an animal
And it doesn’t
Give you
The right
To erase my kind
As if we don’t matter
I am a determined
To get back to my family
You will not be
Stuffing or mounting me
Any time in the near future

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Help Us All”

I hate that
In my life
I have to come across
People that are the most

These dim-witted
Cracked egged
Scrabbled brain
Slow rising

Absolutely
The most unnerving
Individuals
That test everyone’s patience

You feel the urge to choke
The life out of them
But you can’t
Because you’re too pretty

Who wants to go to prison
To be big Bertha’s
New girlfriend
I don’t

They make it so hard
To hold on to your sanity
Common sense is a rare thing
To come across

It’s as if these people
Got tired of waiting in line
To get issued theirs
They complained so much

Talking theirself into
The worst possible choice
Saying it’s not worth it
To wait

Believing the common sense line
Could be overlooked
That the risk was
In their favor

To climb up stupid mountain
They thought was a shortcut
Leaving the line
And going to another line

That was moving faster
Avoiding another skill
Reading
A fundamental

If they read the sign
Before getting in line
They would have noticed
It was a line for kids amusement

A distraction for them
A clown making
Funny shaped balloons
And it was free

But these people
Paid the ticket sales person
By signing over the rights
To their soul

To jump ahead
Insisting it’s what
They needed most
Filling their heads with

Generic air
And just floating through life
Becoming
A burden on society

Causing companies
To make simple
Everyday rules
Putting up dumb down signs

Making those with
Common sense
Say uh Duh
But I guess

You have to post them
To protect the senseless
So they don’t harm theirself
Or those around them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Blaming Others”

It’s time to
Figure out your malfunction
Why are you afraid
To ask for help
Ask for what you want
Ask questions
To get answers
To problems
You can’t solve
It’s better to ask for guidance
Instead of running
Into the dark
Stumbling over everything
Because your ego
Stopped you from
Asking where was the light
Don’t you realize
The odds are
Practically in your favor
It’s a fifty fifty chance
To it going your way
Yet you keep your mouth closed
Over thinking
The what Ifs
Now your ambition
Is dying
And you’re overflowing
With resentment
Cursing everything and everyone
In your path
Like it was their hand
That covered your mouth
Just look down
It’s your own

That stopped you from talking
That stopped you from asking
It’s your own fault
The blame is not theirs
Stop being so spiteful
Hating on those
That are getting
What they asked for
It’s time to
Realize the truth
They did something
You couldn’t
Opened their mouth
And spoke with confidence
Not timid
Not shy
Not passing up
The promotion
They worked hard for
Like you did
Now you are standing in the corner
Glaring and hissing
Huffing and puffing
Like a two year old
Pissed because you didn’t get your candy
Unless you want to live you life
Behind the scenes
As an unknown
Wondering
What they would have said
If you voiced your concerns
No one reads minds
No one sees the quiet ones
They are looking for leaders
That stand out
They want fighters
Because fighters are survivors
They’ve learned early in life
There is no shame in asking
Yes or no questions

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Getting In The Game”

It’s unknown
Of your expiration
In a blink of an eye
One minute you here
The next you gone
So stop complaining
You haven’t even tried your best
Yet you pointing your finger
Towards everyone
Except the true culprit
Lack of inspiration
Having no drive
Afraid of success
Avoiding the strenuous climb
To stand for something
Or be someone better
To get out your head
To follow your desires
Just bidding time
Making excuses for why
Today
Is not the day
To accomplishing
Your dreams
Procrastination
Mixed with laziness
To avoid reaching for things
When it is arms length from you
Afraid to step up
To the plate
Because you may fail
Stop making excuses
You must swing and miss
To gain your experience
Get your rythym going
Build your stamina
Use your unlimited
Strikes until you get it right
You are playing the world series
Of your life
With a set number of innings
Playing again and again
Increasing your chances

To win your dreams
Each day a reset
When you rise again
Stop thinking
Your game is unlimited
There are no bargains or pleading
For more than
What you have been offered
There is no special treatment
When death is calling
It’s in the fine print
Of your contract
The redos in this life
Will eventually stop
So start taking advantage
It’s time to get yourself
In the game
Fight for yours
Before your countdown
Gets to zero

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Here For You”

When you’re feeling down
You can’t sleep
My sleep
Is not your problem

Talk
Decompress
Voice your frustrations
My ears are always yours

I will listen
And reassure you
This is another test
That we will pass together

I may not agree
With your choices
Or the way you
Live your life

I’m not here
To judge you
That’s only
For the almighty

If I said
I am your best friend
Your lover
Your companion

I am whatever
You need me to be
I have
Only one condition

Don’t ever
Betray or
Cause irreparable harm
To me

I will always be there for you
Being your
Negotiator
And a cheerleader

To cheer you on
To give you encouragement
To tell you the truth
To talk you off the ledge

That you are so close to
Jumping off of
Stop
Look

I’m Standing
Right there
Beside you
Holding your hand so tightly

My spirit
Will always be there
My love
Will always surround you

I am not a person
That will give up on you
I will never kick you any further
When you’re already so far down

At your lowest
In a hole
So deep
The air is smothering

Reach for my hand
It is your choice to take it
I will protect you
As if I’m your guardian angel

That feeling of pain
Doubt
And the urge of giving up
When there is no one else around to help you

I am not those other people
I’m in your life
Stopping believing
Those demons

Clouding your head
You are never alone
If I a capable
I will get to you

When you really need me
There is no expiration
Of what I am to you
So don’t hesitate to call on me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Love Can Be A Drug”

What is love
To a person that has
Never experienced it
Or known it

In its purest form
There are many
Who have confused it
As having possession of a person

Wanting to hold them
Against their will
As if they are a trophy
Or using them for their own reasons

That are not kosher
Playing a dangerous game
That leaves people scorned
Vindictive and murderous

It’s something
That so many people confuse
And are blind
To seeing how damaging

It is to them
Doing things
Out of character
Stalking their significant other

On social media
In real life
Begging them to return
To them at any cost

Diminishing their dignity
Fighting other people
Sometimes
Unaware of their relationship because they were never told about them

Either STOP fighting the wrong person
And start correcting the one
That says
They love you

Or do one better
Start questioning
Your partner’s true intentions
On your future

Decide
To save yourself
Or close your eyes
To the truth that this is not your truest love

It’s not suppose to be so hard
And it’s not going to be easy
It’s going to take work
Because of two different personalities

The truest of love
It’s an unconditional
Freeing
Sensation

You can’t force it
On a person
That doesn’t feel
That magically feeling

It’s a locked door
To a place
Only one person
Has the key for

It’s not easy
To have
But easy to lose
If it’s not taken care of

Fertilized
With care
And given
Sunshine to

It’s a high
It can make you
Feel like
Your flying

And crashing
At the same time
Shaking
You to the core

Being the worst feeling
When you’re hurting
And the best feeling
When you’re on cloud nine

Love can not be bought
It’s something that is given
Without hesitation
Without alternative motivation

Not used as a tool
To get materialistic things
But something
More precious than gold

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Human Chain”

You must
First save yourself
Pulling yourself to safety
Then lend a hand to pull up another
Forming a chain to bring them all up
So no one dies
If you are lost and confused
Unable to see what direction
Your life should go
How are you able to guide others
Giving advice
Giving all you have
But not leading by example
Achieving your goals
You take on responsibilites
That are not your own
You are giving
When you don’t have nothing to spare
You are struggling
While trying to save the world at the same time
Wondering what you are doing wrong
And why you are not getting nowhere
It’s just at that moment
You should take the time to step back
Reevaluate your situation
Reevaluate your mindset
Reevaluate everything that has you tredding water
So you can fix the problem
You’ve dug yourself into
You must know
Sometimes it’s best to say no
To the many
That hold their hand out
So you can build yourself up
So you can be in a place to help others
It’s not to say you’re being selfish
But you have to be realistic
Just for awhile
So you won’t be on the other end
Fighting for your life
Just think
And not react
Until you have a solid plan
We can drown
Together
Or I can make sure
I’m in a position to
Help both of us
Some people can block their
Blessings
By passing up on the blessings
Meant only for them
By helping another person
In the same situation
Common sense would be
If you are floating in the same waters
With no lifeboat or lifevest
As everyone else
You must question
How are you in a position
To help them
Without drowning in the process
You can’t save everyone
But you can kill everyone including yourself
As you give a hand
To one person
As support
Another will reach
And so will another
Pushing you under
The water to lift their self up
In a panic
Because they all need help
Survival insincts always will kick in
Survival of the fittest
Will be set in their minds
Without realizing that they are killing
Those trying to help save them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Discovering New Strength”

We have fought so hard
To get to this place
Of peace and clarity
Through many trials and tribulations

That tempted us
With confusion
Lack of trust
Forgetting who we were in this marriage

We must keep our promise
To tender our flame
That burns
So deep inside us

From this day on
Let’s enjoy each other
Discovering the deepest part of love
No one could have imagined

Forget all that surrounds us
Please hold my hand
Stand side by side
To the edge

As we jump together
Diving into the deepest depths of life
As man and wife
United and bound forever

Our faith was tested
We nearly lost it all
Evil demons was playing for our souls
Using our mouths

To say hurtful things
They were focused on
Destroying our strong foundation
We both had doubts

We had lost our way
Traveling two different paths
Being complacent
Forgetting to cherish us as a whole

When made a promise
To go on this journey
Together forever
For eternity

We stopped doing for one another
We stopped loving what
Brought us together
It was flashes of happiness

That saved us
It kept shining through
The pitch black darkness
Images of us smiling and laughing

It warmed the coldness
I felt for you
On a daily
I had to get over the anger

To fight through the obstacles
To get us back
And from the thing
That was making us strangers

We stopped being serious
About our future
our love
Even the thought of being together

We were over thinking
Letting evil in our heads
I couldn’t let something
So insignificant

To obliterate
What we built together
Our love Our unity
Our faith Our bond

Let’s forgive
Our misgivings
We survived
The ultimate test

No one one Earth can come
Between us
And nothing beyond this Lifetime can
Break us apart

We have a second chance
To get back the gift
We once were
For one another

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Breaking Down”

I have not done it in awhile
But I had a good reason
My body was not prepared
For the new stretches

Muscles have weakened
Stiff and not as limber
As it once was
Only a few years ago

I bent over to
Touch my toes
As I came up
I stopped

Suddenly half way up
I grabbed
Under my breast
Swelling had already set in

As big as my palm
Increasing by the second
Almost covering half my body
Over my ribs

It felt so unnatural
All I could do was
Hold on to dear life
To a chair arms length away
from me

The pain was nothing
I could walk off
My eyes teared up
Someone noticed

Causing panic all around me
People rushing to my rescue
My silence and facial expressions
Said it all

I couldn’t speak
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t breathe
I could only hear the person

Standing next to me
Holding me up
Saying
Take a slow

Deep breath
Breathe breathe
Don’t tense up
It wasn’t working

The attention of everyone staring
Made me more anxious
I was panicking
The surges were hitting me

Worser than the other
Getting rapid and stronger
Coming one after another
Not giving me a chance to catch my breath

Don’t touch me
Don’t move me
Played in my head
Just leave me be

I can get through this
Don’t bother
It was as if something was moving
Under my chest outward

It felt like a ripple effect
As if someone
Had thrown a pebble
Into a body of still water

Causing
A sound so clear
But faint
And if you turned away

Before the pebble hit
You miss the awesomeness
In seeing something so small
Causing water

To move in rapid motion
Creating mini
Circles
Expanding bigger and bigger

Until it disappears
But to me
It was not awesomeness
It was pure torture

So bad I felt like I was having
An out of body experience
Escaping for a moment
Until it was safe

To re-enter
I would not
Wish this pain
On my worst enemy

I hate being this broken
Helpless
And so angry
Because no one knows how to fix me

-Yellowbonewonda

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